I think I'm some really strange type of asexual. I'm practically reverse demi-sexual (when you only want sex with someone you're in love with). I often have sexual crushes on guys, and I experience sexual attraction just like everyone else - except for when I love someone. Then I don't want sex with them. You can imagine what kind of pressure it puts on my relationships - I don't want to sleep with my boyfriends, but lust after other guys constantly. I wish I knew what caused that, so I could maybe change it, but I don't.
I found out my wife and I are cheating on eachother with thr same guy...😕
i seek men to give me the pleasure that my wife doesnt
i seek men to give me the pleasure my wife doesn't
you can be a real Dick sometimes. I swear I wish I hadn't married you sometimes. why the fuck do you have to disagree with everything I say?? I swear whenever you puss me off I feel completely justified for sleeping with other men. Fuck you. you gave me a fucking std! ! my fucking husband! maybe it was one of those bitches you cheated on me with when I was trying to be the good wife and waiting at home for you. advice to women: don't get fucking married!!
I am tempted to reconnect with the guy I was having an affair with.
I wish I hadn't cheated. I realize now that I harmed myself more than anyone. and now I live with regret and in fear.
oh daddy..i like it hard... i wonder who's her daddy now...?
I miss your kisses, your touch, your tongue. I miss your big brown eyes, your smile, your beard, your tattoos. I miss the sound of your voice and the Floridian- Texas drawl to it. I miss seeing the contrast of our skin colors against eachother. My brown skin against your white olive skin. I miss the way you think. and your open minded adventerous spirit. I wonder if you think about me. I remember meeting you at Target and you were so pale and cute. you had on a sleeveless T-tshirt, shorts and flip flops. so cute 😍 . You're such a surfer, soccer playing guy. You're my type. you played with my braids before pulling me close into your arms and embracing me right there in the boys section in Target. You were a bit sweaty and musty but I didn't mind. I love your scent. You made your purchase and we walked back to your truck. You reached across and buckled me in then cupped my face and kissed me so gently yet passionately. I miss you so much. it was twilight so we weren't to worried about being seen. You squeezed one of my breast and kissed me more. our tongues played and danced together. Then she called. we said silent good byes I got out of your truck and went back to my car. you went home to your wife and went home to my husband. I miss you. I miss us. god please give me the strength and conviction to not go back.
I slept with several men I randomly met as a way to cope with hurt my husband caused me in our marriage. it was a lot. I feel guilty and bad about it and I have stopped. one of the men I had a months long relationship with and apart of me wishes I we had met and married instead when we were younger, instead. also, he is white and Im black and I didn't t see race when I was with him. just a friend and companion. I miss him but I am not going back to that old life. I can't. I have too much to lose. we both do.