this world doesn't want me, this world doesn't needs me
i hate when people talked about others behind their back, but even when I hate it I also did it anyway..it becomes habit n makes me hate myself even more..I really need to control myself and stop this bad habit..but why is it so hard to stop it..?? is it really a human nature??
I caught my bf & my bff talking shit about me,- like getting me to leave the room talking shit about me when I called them out on it they both of course claimed innocence. I haven't talked to her since and he is adamant that I'm just losing it. why can't I find an actual friend?! everyone either does me wrong like this or actually moves on & does something with their life. I'm still here. hiding away because I'm scared to death of what the future holds.
sometimes I convince myself that everyone else is much better than me, they can, I can't
I won't make it another year like this.
how can someone claim to be completely in love with someone, but cause nothing but heartache? I can't go through this yet again...
I've never been so close to driving the edge of the blade into my skin.... It's been years...
My heart breaks as the days go by... Because I know that even if I do leave her, nothing will change for her, and she really won't care...
poker face...FUCK YOU!!!!!! come on man, u're a grown man with beard..don't be too childish, u really embarrassing me
I'm tired...I really want to take off this masks..at least just for a while..