why everyone leave? why do i have to be alone once again?? god, just take me.. i can't deal with it all over again
I don't belong here. This is your world. I just live in it.
I feel dead inside. Without any energy or motivation to do anything.
I'm tired of getting my heart broken. I'm starting to think there really just isn't anyone out there for me, and I'm just going to have to go through life alone.
Most days I just lie on the couch and do nothing. I have no energy. Sometimes it feels like I've been drugged.
I'm a compulsive cheater. I hate myself, and I will end my life soon, so this stuff ends.
I talk to myself alot when no one eles is around. I pretend I'm talking to a therapist and then I just start reliving my life. All the times my step dad yelled and hit my for no reason. The time I was molested. My biological dad calling my from jail but then disappearing when he got out. How I had a friend I thought I would have for life but she fucked me over. How I got pregnant and relized I didnt know how to act or even raise a child so I feel like a failure as a mother. It always ends up with me crying cause I realize I dont really have anyone who I feel like really cares. I just annoy them or make them uncomfortable when I try and talk about my problems. I know going to an actual therapist could help me. But they are just a stranger who wants money I don't even have.
I went to confess my thoughts, but then I realized that I didn't know what words to use. I live with my boyfriend and his 1 year old son, because his ex walked out on his sons life. Now He makes me feel like I'm in the wrong about everything, he says that I complain about everything, that "it's never enough". I just am tired of being put down... I'm the one staying home and cooking, cleaning, taking care of his son, and I don't even have any friends or family to talk to anymore. advice?
I don’t really know what I’m depressed about. I’m 19 now, and I’ve been feeling like this since I was 7. My own family doesn’t know how to support me, because they don’t know how it feels to be depressed. I started to believe what sister said to me that I’m actually a failure, cause doesn’t matter how many times I tried, I still failed. That I’m actually a disappointment to my parents and so on. I accept it now. I’m thinking of getting warded, bcs I really wanna rest. There’s a war inside my head and being at home doing chores and having to function like a human being makes it worse bcs there’s nothing i want more than killing myself.
I don't know how to scrape together the will to get up every morning anymore. There's less of it every day. Sometimes I feel like I'd rather die than get up and go to work. It's bad.