When I was 14-15, I met a guy. he was 17 at the time. I was in 9th grade and him 11th. we were fully in love. my family loved him, my friends loved him, and even our teachers new about us. a couple months later, he said to me that he found a spot out in the woods that he though could be a really cool hangout for us. so I went with him. after school when we got there, we ended up listening to music and cuddling. everything was going perfect until he ended up wanting to have sex with me. I never had before, so I said no... he didnt listen. ...he forced me down and raped me in the middle of the woods. even though that was years ago, I still blame myself for it. i think about it everyday. I hate myself for not screaming. I was scared. ..I cant ever forget about what happened and I dont know how..
I'm super nagged out. like I want to have sex but everytime I ask for it my husband is tired or there's not enough time. but I'm expected to blow him ride him bend over for him when he wants and it's making me feel gross and like I should just stop trying and doing things altogether.... I'm kinda ready to cry, it's just sex so why do I feel so fucking low
I have days that feel "normal" but then I have days that I feel empty or I get irritated about everything all day. I have a son thats over a year old and another thats now alittle older then a month old. I have my boyfreind, who is their father, with me. But I feel like if I am home, I mostly do everything unless I ask him for help. I also live with his mom and sister and for someone whos only really lived with one other person, I feel overwhelmed ALOT. His mother even watches his siblings children. So, 5 people pluse 2 or 3 more kids. I dont get any personal time but when I do, I get sad and verry depressed. I cry alot. I dont l feel like myself anymore. I swore to myself that if I started getting like this I would get help. I don't want to admit that I need help. Its just a constant battle inside me. I dont even want to be a mom some days. I feel like Im drowning..
I have been lying to my girlfriend of 6 years, telling her that i am feeling better about myself and confident when I am not. I have been pushing myself to be comfortable around her when I can't be anything about insecure. she knows I used to selfharm and helped me to stop and think differently, but recently I have been doing it again and lying to her saying I haven't. I'm thinking of just ending the relationship and moving away, I don't want to hurt her anymore.
I like this guy and he loves me too but bcs of age difference I felt ashamed to accept him so I never accepted his feelings officially other then that we would be flirting for fun and joke around and play but nothing intimidating cuz I have this crazy mindset to only kiss and have sex with one man my whole life . So it's been 3 years since we both have been friends and he have confessed to me but I love him but I cant accept the fact to accept him as my bf bcs I dont wanna date even . So this best friend of mine whom I always considered as a family and sister she was always jealous of how boys loved me and liked me even when I wouldn't give them what they need and she would so she took the chance this year during our summer holiday when I had a fight with this guy and said lies to both of us and she seduced him and flirted with him so this guy and me we didnt talk for 1 month and after when I found out about my friend's plan I was devastated and heartbroken I couldn't believe my ears and i texted this guy and ask him if this was right . he said that he was just being "FRIENDLY" and he didnt do anything but bcs if my feelings I let it go and to my friend I didn't confront her until now and it's been 3 months. And this guy he was guilty I could see it but bcs of my desperate feelings i forgave him and after 1 week he started ignoring me completely. He wouldn't talk and always avoid me whenever I would talk to him . So after 2 and half months of ignoring he started talking to me again yesterday apologising that he is sorry for behaving that way . during this 2 months and half I tried to talk to him and asked him what's wrong y r u behaving this way he would just leave . And now his bff likes me bcs while I wasnt talking to my bff and this guy I was hanging out with other groups of people and in there was his bff and now he likes me and gets mad at me when ever this guy talks to me . He dont say it he just starts behaving zoned out . I didnt flirt with him nor even give him hope I would even call him for fun son or bro sometimes yet ... he likes me
I wish Rose Namajunas was my girlfriend and everyday i feel upset in my chest .and i think this should stop already.
Government start from dumb, to extremely ridiculous. 4 years in prison if your neighbour doesn't like your pet in their lawn?! Like what the fuck!!
I have a huge crush on thug Rose i think she's perfect and i love her so much it hurts and i told myself to not worry but it's still the same and the end of the year is coming
ever owning a house and being able to buy food and pay house bills seems extremely impossible and i'm 24
I'm sick in the head and body. I'm God's personal joke. I'm so sick of everything and everyone. Sometimes all I wanna do is sex but other times it's irrelevant. I feel like a middle age man bound by religion and those above me to stay a virgin and angry all the time so that they have decent recruits for their armies.