I don't know why I can't bring myself to do shit I had to do. I'm putting my attention to do things that I like, which is way less important than the thing I should be doing. I feel like a failure but I can't bring myself to do it.. I'm scared of something irrational.. maybe I'm insane
I can't cope with working 40 hours a week. I just can't. It's too much. Choosing between getting up so early that I want to die and be tired the whole day, or working so long that I can only eat and sleep after work, is too draining. Having two days out of seven to do something I like and relax is not enough. I am constantly feeling like I'm gonna be sick because of all the emotional stress. I'm not made for a 40 hour week. But being unemployed would probably be even worse, so...
sometimes I feel like I have nothing to live for, I'm very tired of all I have to be going through. my home was once the only comfort zone I had being someone who suffer from social anxiety problem, but ever since a relative of mine moved in, I feel like I'm living in hell sometimes I think it would been better if I no longer exist, at least then I would have nothing to feel.
I don't know what to do to get laid, I need it bad!
I got a ton of pimples suddenly. Like a teenager going through puberty. I'm in my kid 20s though, and I don't know where they come from, because I haven't changed anything- no new meds, no new crap in my diet, no more stress than usual, I change the bedsheets and towels as often as I always used to. The products I use are the same ones I've used for years or at least months. I feel so bad about this because while you're a teen, it's at least normal to have pimples, but as an adult, it's not. I've never been so self conscious about the way I look.
I don't like this, feeling tired most of the time. Everyone close to me say I need to do more things to exercise, but I just can't bring myself doing it.
I have a fight coming up. its my first fight. i have to lose a lot of weight, and im scared. i think i can win it cuz everyone told me so but im pretty nervous. if i win it means a lot of things for my life. a lot of things could change massively. im just so anxious and nervous idk. i've been smoking way more weed that usual and thats already a lot. also im running to lose weight but scared it will hurt my knee
I wanted to ask do you guys think its weird that i like girls that are like boy-ish? like when they have short hair and small bewbs i think is cute. like if u want example my celebrity crush is thug Rose from the ufc
Fuck. I just got my first credit card, and the second payment is already a day late. I've just had to pay a late fee and now my interest rates have skyrocketed. I misread the date and thought it was due today, but it was due yesterday. I didn't think bills could be due on Sundays because banks don't operate on Sundays. And I'm so forgetful I forgot that the due date was even coming up. I hate myself so much right now for fucking this up. I had ZERO interest on this card until now. Fuck. Why can't I do anything right? This is why I'm a good for nothing loser who still lives with my mom at 23. Fuck me.
I have a family, parents, aunts, uncles, a boyfriend. Yet I feel so lonely. Everyone is interested only in their own needs and wants. I might be an idealist or a fool. Either way I feel like I don't belong in this world. I am getting scary thoughts. I just needed to get this out into the world. I want to know if there are people in the world who genuinely care and support others when someone is clearly struggling.