I think I'm depressed. I've attempted suicide many times. I want to seek help but don't know how to. I'm embarrassed and scared. idk how my family and friends will react. What is it like calling a hotline? What do they say to you? What do they ask you? Please help.
I've tried to overdose on pills 5 times already and I just started high-school (going into sophomore year) what do I do? Idk if I'm depressed I just feel angry and sad all the time. I'm very self conscious, I feel like no one lives me, and I feel like if those attempts would've worked none of my friends would care. I always ask them how they feel and if they are doing well but they never ask me.
Every day I have the desire to suicide. The desire is becoming so strong. Everything is boring to me, making love to my wife is boring. I find myself so critical and negotive of people. I look in the mirror and see my face covered with moles, I can't stand the look of myself. Every time I turn on the news, I feel this world has gone to shit, that humanity has lost its way and there is no hope left for us or our planet. My lower back, nerve in my hips is so painful and I can't sleep a good sleep due to the ongoing pain I suffer behind the back of my knees every night. I suffer from constant ingrown eye lashes as a result of my eye being stitched up twice because of ulcer on my 👁, caused by a woman who kissed my head as a baby who had a mouth ulcer. My entire life has been one disappoint after another since I was a baby, suffering non stop physically and mentally. I must have been punished for something bad I did in my last life. I just wish I could close my eyes and die naturally, instead of the guilt and hurt I would cause others if I took my own life.
I've been seeing this girl for over an year, we've been really closefriends, but nothing more than that. At the end of February I've told her the truth, that I like her, and that I don't want to put more pressure on her, because I knew she was really stressed out with her work. Then Corona came and we've been isolated for the past two months, speaking only from time to time. Two weeks ago, she invited me to go hiking and we went with some of her friends, only that on last week, she started kissing with one of the other guys. what do I do ?
I CANNOT BREATH! What will happen next?
im thinking about getting plastic surgery im 20 f
i'm really effeminate as a guy, like, i do guy stuff and i look like a guy but i'm just really effeminate i like feeling cute and especially with sex stuff i'm really like a bottom, only lately i started to be ok with that cuz its my nature and i cant help it, but i've just been worried, like, will i ever find a girlfriend and make her happy if i'm like this? are there girls who like guys like me? i'd like to hear from the girls more
It's very hard for me to get a job, friends or a relationship. So much that I don't have any and never had.
I don't love anyone, not even myself.
Im struggling. I've been very blessed but I keep messing things up. I'm moody. I'm not keeping control of my emotions and urges. I'm struggling.