I will not use an online dating site, ever again.
Any dudes here taking meds and because of it sex drive is low? I mean so low that jerking off doesn't give the sensation of orgasm despite cumming. I ask because I want to get back to what I had a few years ago when masturbating felt really good. Please share to me how you managed to get your sex drive back. I have no gf btw nor it's going to happen in a near future.
I know that believe is illogical, but I like the Idea that after death, one becomes the "god" of their own universe - call me weak-minded, but it helps me cope with the fact that death is inevitable.
I'm so tired of my mom right now. She pisses me off daily at this point, sometimes several times a day. I just wish I could get away for a little bit.
I have been having issues with spotting for 14 days. Two months ago, I started birth control pills, and I am still adjusting to them. It is a possibility, that I am going through, hormone changes. I thought, the spotting, stopped, today. I told my boyfriend about my spotting issue, and thought, it stopped. We had sex, protected of course, and found out, it was still happening. I was embarrassed. I should have declined, but I was the one who was selfish. He had the most shocked look on his face, and his expression mortified me. He was trying to act like what happened was okay, but it clearly wasn't. That wasn't the only goof up I've had, in this relationship. This relationship is very new. I wouldn't be surprised if he wants to be with someone else. He seems to be understanding of what happened, but I don't know what he's thinking. I just have to accept what happened. Anyway, life goes on. Ugh.
I think everyone secretly hates me or hangs out with me out of pitty. I am weird as f*ck and not in a good way. Almost like creepy weird cause I try to hard. I hope my son has a easier time making freinds like his dad.
I have to say this here because I know it's stupid, and I know I'll be criticized for it if I tell anyone else. If I smell kitty litter or something that smells similar to it, it reminds me of my cat and I get sad. I miss him so much. I hate that something as simple as just the scent of kitty litter makes me think of him. He's been gone for almost half a year now.
There's no reward for me when I talk to people.
Degree is hard. I want to this but at the same time I'm becoming really depressed.
I missed my teenage years because my parents expect me to act like them. As a kid, I stayed home in my house and kids are not invited in because my dad doesnt want them too. So i acquired an antisocial attitude until at my teenage years. Now Im in my 20s and i still feel like going back to my teens because I never had a social life in those times. When i was in high school, I wake up, go to classes, alone, then go home tired and sleep then do homework, social media where nobody talks to me then sleep. The cycle repeats everyday. Now its the same in college. Though a larger community, and when I approach people they were different, not a teenager mindset and I still am.. so im considered odd to them because I act like a teenager. But for me i feel like i was in a comma for so long woke up and suddenly people around me are different.. and as if i never changed. Just because I never had a social life in high school. And continues to be the same in college. Like now that im an adult and suddenly given a freedom, im adapting to my age how people my age act like but its honestly difficult. And i realized life does not exist without people around us. And all this time i was always been dead inside because life with people does exist as if i dont exist.