i love a guy that cheated on me and used me for sex.. but i feel empty without him and i don't know why! we were a couple for 9 months.. and even when we broke up.. he still wanted me (for sex i think) and the stupid me wanted to make him happy even if my own happiness was dying by doing that! everytime we have a fight.. i dream about us being friends again for two weeks everyday! and the strange thing is that he apologizes to me.. after that.. maybe i'm being stupid again but i can't be mad at him because he made me very happy somedays.. and made me feel like i wasnt alone when everyone hated me.. . my father died when i was 10 and the guy made feel like i was loved again... i'm ONLY 17 God... why are you doing this? can't people be happy Forever?
I can't stop nervous pooping. My anxiety is so bad today it's giving me diarrhea. My stomach feels awful. I hate this. I shouldn't be this upset.
I'm terrible at goodbyes. I always cry when I have to say goodbye to someone I won't see for a long time. I get all choked up and can't get any words out. I feel depressed for several days afterwards. I guess part of me is afraid I won't see them again. But the biggest thing is that I don't want to be without them for so long.
My mom died when i was 18 and my dad just died this January. I'm 24 about to be 25 and i dont know...i hate feeling sorry for myself and it makes me never want to talk about it. It wouldnt fix anything. But my mom and I have birthdays 3 days apart we always celebrated together. Mothers day and fathers day is coming and i just dont know how to feel not many people can relate but they care. I just wanted to share that.
I moved out of my parent's home only two weeks ago and I'm already doing everything wrong. First of all, I completely forgot that I have to take out a liability insurance. The insurance guy was very nice and gave me an immediate appointment, which I forgot about. He was still nice enough to send me the form to sign, and even though I managed to meet the deadline on point, I forgot to sign one paper. So I now have no insurance. I also forgot to pay a few bills. I bought a kitchen and somehow got the measurements wrong, so I lost a few thousand dollars. My school grades currently completely suck because with all this stress I can't concentrate on anything. I wish I wasn't so stupid and incapable.
My life sucks. i want to die
I have almost nothing in my life to show for. If it wasn't for my mother I'd be living in the street. I have depression an anxiety and it's so bad that I can't get a job, friends or gf. I'm two and half yrs of becoming a 40 yrs old virgin. I'm fat, diabetic, had cancer 6 yrs ago. Because of the last one I've became very angry and temperamental that I pissed off all of my now ex friends.
Social anxiety is when you get up half an hour earlier than you have to each day to catch an earlier bus just because on your usual bus there was someone who started greeting you, and you're afraid that he'll start chatting with you one day. And Smalltalk makes you so nervous that you're rather tired.
I lost my whole family today in a car acident :/ mom, dad and my lil brother :/ now i have to be the “mom” from my 4 months baby sister ans im only 21 years old. I dont know what to do.. im just in the hospital like hours.. i cant not go back home with my sister.. i just wanna die too :((((( i have no one left :/// my sister is too young to understand and i just fucking cry.. ://///// im not prepared to real world anymore.. and also. Ot prepared for be alone :/// im afraid
tfw you have lots and lots of people supporting you, some of them even willing to stood for you. yet here you are, cannot stop thinking bout killing yourself. i cant..