I'm taking medicine for baldness, i started really early so i still have a lot of hair and i don't look like i'm balding, but i don't want to take medicine anymore, i think it's affecting my health, it's expensive, and i don't feel good about it.. i feel like i'm not free, i can't just go on crazy adventures like i want to, i have to take my medicine bottles and use it everyday.. i'm 23, i know girls my age will be repulsed by me and treat me horribly with a shaved head, but i feel like it's ok, and i can wait a few years to meet more mature women.. it will just suck to be single for so long as i already feel sad for being single. but i'm tired of the medicine and feeling this way, i need to shave it
I hate feeling this alone. I'm in a house full of people, but due to our opposing schedules, I feel just so... isolated. Third shift life sucks. I hate being by myself all the time. I miss my family and my friends. But I don't have any other options right now.
Being a nice person is fucking terrible. I always go out of my way to help people if I'm able to, and what do I get? I get treated like I'm absolutely worthless by the same people I went above and beyond for. Sometimes I wish I knew how to tell people to fuck off when they need help. Nobody ever helps me when I need it. Be an asshole. Being nice isn't worth it.
It hurts when you have many people around but nobody supports you. My family is just a bunch of assholes who mock, intimidate, and even they dont care whenever i'm ill. They just make me do whatever they want right at the moment or i will get punished. My friends are the same, they come when they need me to do smth for them but when i want to tell my stories they are not here because of many reasons. I'm stressed right now. Idk what to do. Feels like i want to kill myself. Argh.
It feels like my heart is ripped out of my chest. I don't when, or if, I'll be able to see my nephew again. My house and my heart feels empty without him. I don't want him to grow up thinking I don't care about him, but if that's all his mom tells him and I can't be there to defend myself what can I do? Even if I get back in touch with him when he's grown up, he either won't remember me or he'll think I'm evil because that's what his mom said. It's not like I really did something wrong. All I did was turn down babysitting once and ignore a message from his mom. I'm not the antichrist. I would never hurt him. I didn't do anything to hurt anyone. I know I'm not perfect. But I don't deserve to hear that I'll never see my nephew again because of it. I don't care that his mom (my sister) hates me. She's hated me all 24 years of my life. But my heart hurts thinking I won't see his smile again, or get to hug him, or tell him how much I love him.
I’m going to be homeless soon and I don’t know what to do and I wake up every morning wondering why the fuck I woke up.
I've been out of school for a while, but recently started to get nightmares about it again. They come more and more frequently and become worse, making me actually exhausted when I wake up because I spent the whole time of the dream panting and clenching my muscles (not to mention how I can barely concentrate on anything because I can't forget the dream). I know what they mean; there's always a past trauma in the story. But I wish I knew why they're coming NOW. And how I can stop them.
So I'm a 24 female. Since I was 16 I had strong sexual needs and I begun experiencing. Until recently I felt the need for intercourse almost daily (sometimes a few times a day) and it was wild and fun. Now I'm in a serious, committed, loving and caring 1.5 years old relationship and, since last 7-8 months, I don't feel the need for sex and I feel like something is wrong with me. My bf is understanding about this, but he is always horny and sometimes I just sleep with him just to please him. I feel broken. I want to have that urge again. (P. S. He is a beast in bed and looks athletic, I don't think the problem comes from him)
This is not what I wanted to hear... This is exactly what I feared to hear.
I'm fighting not to become a slave to pornography. This addiction is killing me. I wanna stop self medicating.