I'm sad guys, really, really sad rite now...
between having a boyfriend or girlfriend, I'm more interested in making friends. Because I feel so damn alone. My therapist asked who I can talk about my problems. I said nobody... Like in my opinion, I never wanna make friends just because they're my emotional garbage can. I wanna be friends with them so that I can have someone to call family and go places with. i'm so tired of going out alone.
My period is REALLY bad randomly about two or three times a year. Tonight is one of those nights. I feel like my body is being torn in two, or like something is mauling me and ripping my guts out. I keep clenching my abs so hard trying to stop the pain that my back pops. I've already taken pain meds and I'm laying in bed with a heat pack just writhing and trying not to cry or scream. I can't feel my legs except for the stabbing pain in my knees and ankles. Why does it have to be like this?
I think I’m too nice... maybe I don’t know how to say no to people... or I’m scared of what might happens if I do say no...maybe I’m just a nice person who tries to help as much as I can? But it’s usually to my own detriment... I don’t know how to be less of a pushover.
I think i have anger issues
I don't think I can do college for the time being. My mental state is critical. I wanna take a gap year but my dad won't let me. I'm thinking of running away from home but I'm broke and I don't know where to go.
Everyday my hand goes along my body. My collar bone, my ribs, hips and lastly my thighs. I feel digusted everytime
they never said this but I know, I'm a trash. the most useless human being. I'm a mess and huge amount of burden, for my family. the facts they tried so hard for me for all these years is killing me. they getting older yet I'm still nothing when will I ...... can pay back for all those hard work? Until when , I had to see them suffered...... just because of me, a trash.
i really miss having a real friend that i could talk to whenever i want to. i really miss having a real friend that who wants to hear my story without judging me or giving me a speech as if i need one. cause sometimes you just need a friend to hug you, an ear to listen to you, a friend that will stand by your side no matter what. l'm sick and tired being the one that always have to listen.. making a free time for them.. etc etc. but whenever i need a friend, they said they're busy.. or when they're not, they always giving me speech as if they know that's the right thing to do. please, you cannot control my life. you don't know what I'm feeling..you don't know what I'm going through. how can you know exactly what i feel when you don't listen???! i really need a friend. just a friend to talk to..that's all..😢😢😢
Holy shit I've been hit by the lonely bus