I.. like a person in a higher grade, and she has a bf, and like I just wanna see her happy but I think she hates me now..
I hate it when people ask if something's wrong, no, everything's wrong..
I just hate myself so much...
I've had an episode of depression and ended up in me self harming. That was a month ago and i had another right now. I did cuts in my hips here only i could see because in three days I'm going to visit my family and I'm so scared of people seeing it
I shouldn't have to break down crying in order for you to help me...
Im gonna be completely honest, I've been really sad for a couple of years now, maybe three. I tried to overdose once, and not anything else yet but my suicidal impulses are getting worse and I don't want to tell anybody like a counselor because I don't want my parents to now that I used to harm myself. I don't really need help on this I just needed to get it off my chest.
My mom keeps talking about when I'll have a man in my future but I've already given up on the idea at 30. After all the traumatic things that happened last year, I don't trust anyone really. I don't have the emotional nor financial means to date.. I'm accepting that I'll be alone the rest of my life. I don't know if I should tell my mom or just let her have dreams.
About six months ago I came home so drunk. I thought my daughters room was my girlfriend's room. I got into bed with her an put my hand up her shirt an played with her tits. Then I rubbed her vagina. Wasn't until I rolled her over I saw she was my daughter. Omg I was just thinking what have I just done. I went to my girlfriend an twanted to show her I changed an it was a accident. She realized it was a complete mistake. old her. What happened she was angry I touched our 15 year old daughter. She slapped me around. My daughter was afraid of me for two months. She saw I changed gave up drinking the friends I use to drink with I wanted to saw her I changed an it was a accident
It's 5:30 in the morning, and I'm desperately lonely. I have no one to talk to right now. I've been sick for a week now so I feel like trash, and I thought I was getting better, but realized today I've been running a fever for a few days and just didn't know because I was taking so much medicine to relieve the pain. My boyfriend is sick too, and he's going through a mild depression right now, so I accidentally upset him earlier and I feel terrible about it. He apologized for taking it out on me, but then said he should be taking it out on himself... he shouldn't be taking anything out on himself, he doesn't deserve that. I feel like I'm falling short as his companion because I don't know what to say or do to help him through this. I know I can't fix him, but surely I could be doing something to make it easier on him... He's so wonderful and I love him so much but sometimes I wonder if his self hatred and difficulty trusting others combined with my apparent inability to deal with that will be the demise of our relationship. I want to make it work, and I don't want to leave him because he has issues; I have issues of my own, but the difference there is he seems to know how to help me with mine... I guess I'm just rambling at this point. idk I just needed to get it all off my chest and feel like someone is listening to me, even if no one ever reads this. Just writing it out is kinda therapeutic...
Why am I in a constant bad mood?