It's not that I'm feeling subby today, but I do want to submit.. I just wanna let go and have someone else take care of me.. There's just too much pain right now and I don't want it to hurt anymore 💔💔
It doesn't matter that I am poor, I'll die from diabetes before my family is dead so I won't starve to death after they're gone
So I've sent a email to this woman I used to be in good terms with to say i'm sorry about stoped talking to her. You see I was in a dark place mentally speaking and was ashamed of my behavior at the time. I was offensive and had a very bad temper because of a health problem I had before. Anyway back the the email I sent she didn't replied and it's been over a week. There's no chance that she didn't seen it by now. I used to like her and I think it was mutual until i fucked things up. My loss. I regret a lot of things I said and regret even more not having a relationship with her.
my abuelita died today and I don't know how to feel about it. im sad but I'm not devastated. my sister told me when i was making eggs. I cried a bit but I don't feel anything. I remenber her face and her warm smell when i hugged her and i remember her hair curlers I put on her. I havent seen her in 5 years and those memoried are fading. She was planning on visiting but she cant now. I just want to hug her again and I fucking cant now why does everyone around me keep dying first my uncle then my grandma and now my abuela. at least I had the chance to be with them before they passed I spent one of my last days with my grandma in her bed lying down with her and sleeping, my uncle visited and i have a funny memory of him saying my mom is torturing him by making him shower but I only have a memory of hugging my grandma and her smell but its only that and its fading. god why does everything just fucking suck i wanna die
I'm so tired of being poor; no matter how hard I try, there's an anti me barrier I can't get past.
I just wanna suck on a huge pair of boobs and bust my nut on her face. is that too much to ask for?
Im so tired. I just want to be happy.
Just a few moments ago I was listening to Indie music. Then I suddenly turned it off. I just wanted silence for a few moments. I felt like my anxiety was flaring up and I just wanted the room to be quiet. I took a few breaths. Tried to get my head together. I was beginning to have depressing thoughts all over again. Situations that have past, situations that I do not have full control of right now, and the feeling of uncertainty about my future. I am sure there are millions of people that feel that way. When you sit there alone, sometimes you feel like the only one, unless someone else is around you feeling the same way. I hate that feeling.
I can't stop watching hentai...
Preparing for my father to get supportive living. He will be 80 in two weeks and I live too far to help him everyday. He wants to live by himself. I hate his living situation but he refuses to change. All I can do is set up a possible support group to help him. If he refuses, I can't help him. We met up with each other after 30 years of his absence. For the past 7 years, I would drive 45 minutes there and back, to visit him every two weeks and help with his groceries. Sadly, he didn't raise me, but I wouldn't be here without him. I am trying to be a good daughter, but I have to say that it is hard.