Life's a blur nowadays. I don't like it but oh well.
i have a test in a few hours and i didn’t study for shit, i’m also behind all of my class work. i’m so fucking stressed and i would be able to handle this if my mental health was ok but nOoO
I wish I had enough friends- and a date- so I could throw a New Year's Eve party. Instead I'm going to watch the ball drop with a bottle of moscato in my hand.
High school is now over. Unemployed, no "friends" want to hang out with me. Ive always been a loner, but everyone seems fake two months later after finishing exams. Alcoholic, what can I say, I have nothing else to do. More so better to do. Its like no matter how hard I try, I cant be happy.
So my wisdom teeth are coming out and so far no pain at all but if I do have any later on I don't think I'll be able to go through an extraction. I hate being put under. It terrifies me. I also hate how I feel after. I have anxiety and it's hard for me to keep my mouth open for a long time cause I feel the urge to pass my saliva down my throat. I can't stop over thinking.
Everything dies. Plants, animals and even our sun will burn itself out in due time. But our fear is still there. And the pain we feel when we expirence loss. Life is about living in the now. Love yourself and your family. Its hard when you feel everythings aginst you but you just have to make do off it.
Can I say, you no longer my friend? I probably being too sensitive right now, but you ... sure are something else. I am bad too, I don't treat you nice, I make things hard for you. Just back to basic, I'm a self-centered selfish human being. But I rather to .... put an end than being all fake to you. I'm no longer linda you know. I don't wanna care anymore, just don't talk to me I growth to have bitter feelings on you p.s/ diyanah
Do you know the feeling when you have a horrible job or day at school or work and you look at the clock and get this awful feeling of desperation because there's still so many hours left and you have no idea how to get through it? That's how I feel, but with life. My life is horrible and there's only a very slim chance of it getting better, and I'm only 20. I have so many hours left to live and I don't know how to get through them. I do have some hope left that it will get better, but as I said, chances are slim.
I know it's been said many times but I don't want to die. I just don't. I want to live forever. Please.
I will not use an online dating site, ever again.