I'm so sick of being poor. I fear for my future.
Being sick makes me feel depressed. I just banged my head against a wall singing about shit I wanted to rant about for 10 straight minutes. Being sick is awful, especially when it means that you can't go to school and see the people that make you feel alive. Even gaming, one of my only hobbies, is boring when I'm sick. I can't fucking stand it. I know damn well I have problems, but being sick amplifies them. I can't even tell what those problems are and probably never will be able to unless I go to therapy. But, going to therapy means having to speak to an adult about paying for it. I can't ask someone to pay for my therapy. It just doesn't feel right, making people I barely know (I live in a foster home) pay for my wellbeing. Everything feels wrong, and I hate it.
I think my brother is bulimic! What do i do??
the edge is too dull and the tip is too scary.
I really don't like my life right now. I don't like the anxiety I feel constantly. My friend group no longer feels like my friends. I always feel this need to runaway, but I don't want to leave my husband and animals. I feel trapped and on the verge of crying everyday. I don't understand why I feel this way.
todays jiu jitsu practice wasnt all well and good, it was rough today, i was so lazy and beat up. also a girl kinda made me help her steal lemons from lemon tree and it was awkward she wasnt that nice to me i felt kinda used and as if someones been mean to me
I keep having flashbacks that happened a year ago. I was angry because these peopls attacked me and thinks all I did was all I have done wrong. In a random times of the day I just have a sudden flashbacks and it stops me from doing all the things I am doing. It's hard because I'm too hurt and too angry and I don't understand why I can't let go. I just want to revenge on them and make their lives miserable. But I can't. I tried going to the therapist but all she did was make me feel guilty that I was late for my appointment or something. Little things and it's not helping that I'm just dealing everything on my own. Idk anymore what to do. I want these people's lives miserable. I feel weak, I feel depressed and anxious. I am most of all angry of this world.
I want to quit being anorexic i just don't know how to eat and not hate myself
i wonder if like of all the possible futures that my life could take from now on, i wonder if theres a path i take that leads to Rose being in my life and giving me hugs and telling me everything is gonna be ok
I want to cut off all connections and contact with my friends and everyone else I know. I what to start as a new person. I dont wnattk be the the same guy anymore. I want to be a new person. A new change.