The guy I was dating ghosted me more than a month ago and I still cry about all of the people that have ghosted me... 6 people hated my personality and appearance so bad that they HAD to ghost me. why am I so boring? Why am I so ugly? would I ever feel loved?
i need a vehicle but terrified of riding motorcycles again... i had a big crash and ptsd from it years ago.. now i need transportation i cant live like this, i cant afford uber at all.. i need a job of some kind but i dont have i am sad sad sad sad sad sad
How do i cope with my deep dark secrets and desires.
just deleted tinder im too ugly to be using that
How can a fake smile be so convincing! I wish one day someone would say "what's wrong" and when i say nothing they would tell me that they know something is wrong
either all my knives are too dull or I'm just too scared. either way, I'm quite disappointed that I haven't been able to do it yet.
i went out at night to smoke a joint but was sketched out about being alone in there then i saw 2 dudes and i mistook one of them for the drug dealer whom i have talked just an hour before about smokin a J with, these 2 dudes were old like 40 yr olds and weird as hell, but i had already like offered to share joint with them, so we smoked and now im paranoid about catching diseases from sharing joints, like sex desiases like chalmydia or whatever... am i crazy or is this real? like those were some old guys about the 'life' u know, talking about coke and stuff and with kids and divorced , like they prolly the kind of ppl who would have diseases like that?? or aren't they? can u catch diseases trough saliva? idk why im sharing joints with '''thugs'''' and stuff like that im such a anxious, soft sensitive sadboi, im not like that, i need to listen to my instincts way more and harder, cuz they never fail if i listen but i dont... i wanted to sit alone, smoke a j listenin to my music, but i was awkward and insecure and felt the need to talk to ppl to like justify myself there and 'try to not be awkward' , instead of just acceptin my awkwardness and just sit alone. also i was scared of like being robbed and stuff, to an extent, by sitting alone lol, at least subsconsciously
I leave home at night to take a walk. Very scary, but then I got used to it. The peaceful night walk helps me deal with my emotional problems and mental struggles.
I can't stop thinking about "her"....
So fucking tired. Don't want to do anything.