When I was around 9 or 10, I started going online. I would play video games online, talk to people online, etc. I didn't have much friends and I've never really been a social butterfly. Around the same age, I started online dating. I know you might think that that's.. Stupid... Believe me, it is. I agree, and you're allowed to judge me. But hear me out... When I was younger, my dad struggled with addiction. Same with my mother. They did nothing but fight and scream at eachother, and they did the same with me and my sister. My sister is on the spectrum with Autism, and I have struggled with social anxiety and insecurities pretty much my whole life. I never had a male figure in my life who was firm, and dominant, but sweet and loving... I just wanted someone to play the father role. So I turned to guys on the internet. I knew that it was wrong to be doing what I was, and I didn't want to. But I was so lost and just wanted love from someone. The guy I'm with now tends to say that he loves me, but then tends to say when he gets angry with me, "I just want to be alone again." or "Why don't you just give up already? Why don't you give up on me? Why do you stay?" ... He gets mad because I have moodswings that I can't really control... I'll be happy one moment, and then I'll act neutral, and have no emotion. I never have bursts of anger, but I do have bursts of sadness. That and he gets mad because I'm dumb... At least, that's what he makes me feel like, and that's why I think he gets angry. I constantly feel put down by him, at least, when this one side of him comes out. I'm lost, and I need help...
my mental health is not doing great lately.... I've been doing so much better the last 3 years... but between the pandemic, work, a new house, my boyfriend, the stalling of my business... everything is just too much. I usually don't make these kinds of posts. honestly there's times I hate seeing others post them... but right now I have no one else to talk to and I'm afraid it's going to get the best of me if I can't find a way to cope 😭
Husband’s Mom comes round once a week on average. She basically randomly picks a day and then short notice asks to come over and my husband always says yes, even when he doesn’t feel like it. Like alone what I want, he never asks me. Just tells me that’s she’s coming now. We just had a really big fight because she’s came over 3 times in the last 10 days, I don’t actually have anything against the woman but I think that’s too much. She lives 10 mins away and every time she wants to see my husband, she comes here. My husband refuses to go the 10mins over to her place because he doesn’t like his Dad much and he might see him there and they might squabble over stupid shit. Meaning that our home shoulders 100% of her visits. it so frustrating. He point blank refuses to be fair and do what I’ve asked for a compromise which is 50% visits at our home and the other 50% at his Moms. I just don’t want to see her so often but with him just letting her come whenever she wants I don’t really have a choice, he obviously can see her as often as he chooses but I wish he’d balance it a bit by going to see her not always the other way round. I’m worried that if we have a baby she’ll try to come over 2,3 maybe more times a week. I’ve already said that I couldn’t cope with that, I’ll need some space and won’t be in the mood for short notice Mil visits. It’s even worse because my family live in another country so we rarely see them but I have to put up with my husband’s family all the time because they all live so close. I have no balance and don’t even know if I can fix this now, any serious advice/ similar experiences really appreciated. He’s hurt me with how uncaring he is to even see my side of the story and how he refuses to compromise with me at all, it’s making me resent him and I don’t want that.
i have been single my whole life
hey its me again that martial arts guy and still have the same problem but worse and im scared and dont know what to do and just want my life back
I'm really fucking lonely and I feel like nobody wants me. and I'm really sexually frustrated because nobody wants me but all my friends say I have a huge dick which frustrates me even more
is trying to save sick people more important than making sure healthy people didn't wish they were dead? why is mental health not being talked about? why is it covid this and covid that. stay away from family. don't have activities. don't go outside. keep a mask on. protect your neighbor that could be high risk.... meanwhile thousands and millions are deprived of love and security, they're suffering from the inside out and no one cares because the only important people are those who caught a lung infection.
My relationship is going through a rough patch and I'm afraid we won't make it out of it. We both still have feeling for each other but we have developed in different ways over the last couple of years. I'm devastated, we built a life together...we're talking about our issues but I don't know if it'll be enough..
I was anorexic and bulimic as a teen, but I somehow never quite fit into it. I would binge food and be okay with it, then avoid it the next few weeks. Now I'm an adult and these toughts have been triggered again. My current boyfriend knows I struggled with food, but not how. He is tall and naturally skinny. Sometimes he has lunch and the next time he eats would be lunch on the next day, because he just wasn't hungry. I think about food 60% of the time and got so angry at myself last night, because I was hungry again while he wasn't. I hate it and I hate myself. Right now I just don't want to eat, but simultaneously I think about all the stuff I could bake or cook and enjoy. I want to stay strong and eat nothing. Show him, how I can be. If I give in and have some food, he couldn't take me seriously right? I couldn't take myself seriously. I would look like a joke in front of both of us.
I keep my nails long and sharp. Not because I think it's pretty or because I like it. I keep them like that so I can punish and hurt myself. Nobody suspects a thing.