trying to get things around for a clothing optional dinner party. looking for rules and advice to make it a good night
People are always talking about sex, about all the crazy places they had it, stories with one night stands, ex girlfriends standing in their doorway in lingerie. And I wouldn't mind, if I was normal. If my life was also full of lust and sexual stories. But it isn't, because I'm not normal. I don't want sex as much as normal people do. I'm not completely asexual though - if I was, this would probably be easier for me, but the way it is, I still want it enough to be so, so jealous and envious when I hear my friends talking about it. For me, sex is like the most delicious cake, right in front of your nose - but you have the stomach flu and simply can't eat anything. You want to want it, because you know what you're missing out on, but just don't want it. And the worst thing is that all my relationships eventually fail because of this, which makes it even more painful to listen to all the wild stories.
My confession might seem dumb to a lot of people, but that's why I'm here, right? To talk about things no one in my life would understand. So a couple of weeks ago, my friend invited me over to a movie party- a bunch of people getting together to watch corny horror movies. I decided to go because I don't get out much and I thought socializing would be good for me. And it was. I had a good time. But I hate actual, not corny, horror movies. I don't have the stomach or the stable mind for them. We only watched one that wasn't a corny movie- something called Hereditary. I won't spoil any of the plot, but it has a lot of disturbing images in it, and I just... I'm not scared. I don't think something like that will actually happen, I'm not afraid of what I saw, but I can't stop thinking about it. Dwelling on the images. I wish I could wipe them from my mind. The thoughts are intrusive and just when I think I've finally forgotten it, it pops back in to say "nope! still here!" I just don't want to see charred corpses and decapitated heads and pools of blood anymore. I don't want these thoughts in my head and I can't make them go away! And the worst part is, I don't know how to explain to my friend why I don't want to go back and do it again.
how does one overcome jealously?? it's not to an extreme where i have personal grudges or personal vandettas against someone...it's just a constant nagging, tugging feeling that just won't stop. i just hate being jealous cause i know there's absolutely no reason to. yeah she's pretty but that doesn't make me any less pretty does it? or is it just my self consciousness talking
My boyfriend's bestfriend is gay. He did told me once he was chasing her before until she came out gay. His bestie have a gf, but tbh, I kinda get jealous sometimes on the way they talk. I mean they're even moving to another state and live together as roomates. And idk why I'm jealous when I shouldn't be. They know each other for so long, they had a bond and I can't make him talk to her less because it's so selfish of me to do that. I can't see him sad and eventually start to dislike me because I'm isolating him to his friends. I can't do that to him. Plus our relationship is still new and if I'd be on his shoes, I'd choose my friends who I had bonded long with, over some girl who I just met off dating app and later decided to be steady with. And tbh, I try my best to make him live his life the way it is, I try not to see him everyday (only text him) because I don't want his life to revolve only around me. And that goes for me as well. I have work, school, and hobbies. Although I'm desperately in need of friends. Sometimes I think about it, maybe I feel jealous because I don't really have friends. I still do have so many baggages from the past and I have recently worked on that when I met him. My depression, anxiety, insecurities, lies, and acceptance. I have recently worked them off as why I'm now ready to make some friends. It took me 8 years to work on my problems too. But now this jealousy, it's so new to me and I'm scared that I should've started relationships with him in the first place. I could've worked on myself first. And regrets... Having it less in my life is what I'm lacking. I also lack descisiveness...
I go to a christian church because it's a way to make friends. But I'm not a christian nor even fully believe in it. I respect the religion because people in my church are nice but they dont kmow im not a Christian either.
Hi, how's your day going. I don't mean to disrespect you . I'm looking for a sugar baby who is honest, loyal and trustworthy. And I also expect to keep my company by listening to me and I need a companion, so I don't get depressed in exchange for some weekly allowance,if you don't mind. nothing sexual time in California can you text me on kik Davidjaxs60
My ex friends are nothing like me, I see it now. All they want is to get drunk all the time and go to concerts. But I'll admit that I feel like a stranger around other people.
Rest In Peace Desmond..
I kinda wanna go back to my old friends but there's so much bad blood now between me and some people. Besides they look down at me since I break away from them.