I feel like I don't even have own friend I can actually talk to. I don't to get people involved in my shit anymore because I fuck up too often
I'm in love with my best friend. I've known him since Pre-K and after Pre-K we didn't see each other for a while until we attended the same middle school that's where we reconnected. It was in seventh-eighth grade I began to develop a crush on him and when we got into high school my crush on him grew more and more. I wanted to confess to him, but I didn't because friends of ours including himself told me that he had a crush on a girl in class so I decided not to confess. As high school went on he had other crushes and he then had this one huge crush on a girl and he then decided to change schools to be in the same school as her. Although I thought it was dumb that he changed schools over a girl it's even dumber that I didn't confess to him sooner. As high school went on I got into a relationship that later became a relationshit which I broke off. After high school him and I continued to talk and I soon began to realize that I still had feelings for him and that I might actually be in love with him. I still hadn't confessed yet because he was happy in a LDR and I was genuinely happy for him even though I was in love with him. A few months passed and he had told me that he had broken up with the girl he was with and he's still a bit bummed out about it but he seems to be doing better. A few days ago he had told me that he lost his v card with her.when he visited her for the first time. Lately I've been thinking that maybe I should of confessed when I felt like confessing back then in high school. Maybe if I had confessed to him we would of gotten together and we'd still be together and I don't even have to be writing this. To be honest there were times that I can tell he liked me but yet again I could of been wrong another reason why I was afraid to confess. I also think that if I had confessed and if we got together then he wouldn't have lost his card to her, and maybe would of lost it with me if we got married (saving sex for marriage but not for religious reasons just something I want to do). Knowing him and how he is he would of waited because he's such a sweet loving chivalrous gentleman. I don't know I think it's weird to be thinking about all this, but I can't help it. I should of confessed sooner, but now that he's no longer in a relationship I can confess to him. I'm not going to let my fears stop me this time. Woo! It feels really good to get that off my chest.
need new texting buddies just some friends.
in need of some texting buddies just some friends to talk too.
nothing I do or say seems right. I say something and I hurt someone. I stay quiet and hurt them more. I don't know what to do...
I want to get our of this car and punch and punch that tree.. to make me feel the pain and damage myself the way I'm hurting her...but I promised myself and others I wouldn't SH anymore....
A friend of mine doesn't answer text messages very often. You can be happy if you get one reply per week. We wanted to meet today, to catch up, but didn't set anything but the day (so no time or place). Guess what, the day is almost over and I didn't get a reply to my question when and where. But I refuse to call him, because I don't think it's my responsibility to be the only one taking care of it. Am I too stubborn, or am I right to expect him to also care for it? I don't know.
I miss how we were but im tired of trying and u putting 0 effort... how can we be crumbling and the one causing it not be trying to build it back up
i guess i'm a bit fat. not like really fat, like obese people, but overweight, i would say by 10 or 15kg. i like myself, but it's just a fact, i'm fat. and i find it both hilarious and embarrassing when people can't say fat in front of me, even about other people, they say chubby, round, curvy, but never fat, even when it's obvious. and the look on their faces when i say that f-word out loud, it's priceless.
It hurts so much to hear about the great evening people had, when you weren't even invited. I also don't understand why some people still tell you about it. Sometimes I think that my friends don't even see me as a friend, only as a person who's there, annoys everyone and is sometimes nice to talk to when there's noone better around.