hi I lk to chill and hang
tfw ... When I'm out with a friend and they keep showing me posts on social media That I've Already Reacted To. (if it was a child I'd play along but jeez this is a supposed adult wtf I'm gonna lose my shit inna sec)
I really hate my boybestfriend's girlfriend and she's kinda jealous of me and I was there for him through ups and downs and I met him FIRST before HER. and now my boy bestfriend cuts off his communication to me because he doesn't want his gf jealous. How could you cut me off for your GIRLFRIEND! I was there for him! WE PLAYED VIDEO GAMES TOGETHER! I COMFORT HIM. and you said that u want to date me in another version of me if there could be parallel universe lol. this is crazy. Anyways, I'm pretty and sexy than her gf lol. screw u both.
I deleted my Facebook, snapchat and this app called whisper. I just didn't see the point of them anymore. on Facebook I had only 3 friends, had an account since it existed. I only had snapchat for this one friend who im sure I have an obsession with not love... we no longer talk. finalize by her this time. I'm just tired. making friends is just pointless. everyone leaves and they have to. their lives have to progress. why can't I focus on progressing my own. why does having friends matter. why do I always miss them. I dont want to miss anyone anymore. why can't I focus on other things.... sighs
When you so good at hiding things that people can't even tell when your in physical pain or that you have as many struggles as you do..... Iceberg style (implying I only share some of the minor things that are more relatable for others to deal with) I legit don't even make recognizable expressions when I'm in minor pain anymore and even when it's bad pain I'm the one that tells them I'm in bad pain, but let's not for get forget the mental problems I so "seemlessly" avoid talking about and showing to people~ shall we list them? Anger issues, depression, inferiority complex, mild anxiety attacks, very possible undiagnosed adhd, abandonment issues, a toxic ly ableist mindset, self worth issues, etc. Now I know everyome is a bag of problems so the amount I have isn't the problem it's mostly that I see others getting help and working through there problems and I don't feel like I'm so bad I deserve it even tho this crap hurts like hell and inspires some less then desirable coping mechanisms....idk I just wanna be help but don't know how to ask for it without feeling needy
Are there still nice people out there? I have the feeling everyone is so concerned about themselves, there is no room for others, their friends etc. I feel like I'm the only one giving in friendships..
I turned my ex gf in to a slut. I came out to her as bi a few weeks after our break up and she was okay with it. a few days later she told me she wanted to watch me suck another guy off. I gladly agreed because that was my fantasy when we were in a relationship. finally I had a guy come over to play. he took out his dick and we both were excited cuz he had a big dick. I quickly started jacking him off and then placed his dick inside my mouth. my adrenaline was rushing cuz she kept staring at me and I can tell she was getting aroused. I would stare at her as I would give him long slow strokes with my mouth. then I reached over to her and told her to help me out. without hesitating she leaned closer and put her lips on his dick head and started copying my technique slowly stroking it back and forth. watching her swallow a big dick was the ultimate aphrodisiac. then I joined her and started sucking it with her. I couldn't believe my fantasy had came true. I touched her crotch and she was soaking through her pants. after a few more strokes, he finally came on our faces as I came in my pants. he then left and my ex grabbed me and demanded me to fuck her so she can come too. I started fucking her and I felt like I was on ecstacy cuz now im fucking her after we both just got done from sharing dick. it only took her a couple minutes to finish. after that she said that from now on whenever I hook up with a guy, she wants to be present cuz she loved it. next time I'm gonna try to get her to fuck the guy too. I can't wait
I'm not mad that you don't like me, I'm mad that sometimes you act like you do and then pretend like nothing just happened. I wish you were just a bit more honest with me. I'm getting tired of always watering a dead plant. Always the one reaching out and being there but never having any one. or maybe I'm just being dramatic and overthinking things again.
I was jealous of Harry Potter because he was able to talk to snakes it turns out that I was talking to snakes for years
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