I kinda wanna go back to my old friends but there's so much bad blood now between me and some people. Besides they look down at me since I break away from them.
I'm still trying to be nice to her bcs she's my friend eventhough she's so mean to me sometimes and she thought it was just a joke and i was like laugh with her outside, but inside me i hate that, it hurts me. And this night, i got so hyped over the thing that i like then i told her, and her respons just "ew, meh" LIKE WTF CAN SHE JUST APPRECIATE WHAT OTHER PEOPLE LIKE?! i never judge her for everything that she love, i respect that eventho i don't really into it. I act nicely so she would be happy when she got hyped. FINE I WILL MAKE A DISTANCE BETWEEN US
When I was a kid, my best friend of the time and I used to do "fortune telling" from fireweed leaves. I think she's the one who came up with it. We'd gather a bunch of them, make small tears to them to distinguish them from each other and then bounce them around on my family's trampoline. Where each leaf landed would determine the future. How silly 😂 Those were some good times.
My confession is that I always dream of a guy for me... A big guy, soft, gentle, funny, adorable I like when they have strong minds and soft hearts, and I love it when they have soft chests and round bellies... But no one is willing to get with me If there's any big guys from Canada, Quebec here, come on, I hope I can hug you like a teddy 🐻❤
I have no friends because I'm scared of making any. What is the lesser bad - constant loneliness that comes with the loner life, or constant fear of not being good or friendly enough in the company of hypothetical friends?
I'm finally starting fresh. The friends that I have right now are just pulling me back. They think they're so damn cool for having bad grades and being lazy. They don't appreciate the shit I've done for them. I have helped them on their assignments and tutoring them so they can at least maintain a 'C' in a subject. They gossip and hang around kids who stuff their bodies with drugs. They complain about the little things in their life even though they're the ones lacking. The only good that they're good at is saying jokes. That's literally the only reason why I keep them around. I guess it's selfish of me too. I keep them around so I don't feel lonely. I'm so stupid because of this. I'm just thankful for this opportunity of going to another school. I'll make better choices. I'll cut these people out of my life. I guess I'll ghost them.
I met this really nice girl who works at Taco Bell. She's really cute and funny and she seems like she'd be a really cool friend! We seem to have some things in common, too. I left her my number and asked her to text me if she wants. I hope she does, I'd like to make a friend.
I've only met one American in my life and he was a self entitled, arrogant piece of shit. Always putting down my country and its culture, talking shit about European metal, saying it was either gay or silly compared to American bands. He also believed with a burning passion that no one in my group of friends knew what good music, films or TV shows were before he came around which is a total lie. He makes money by baiting naive friends of mine to spend money at his shop. Being his friend is expensive. Really what kind of person you have be to live by exploiting people around you? Fuck I'm done writing this confession, I can't let the hate consume me.
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why I feel, my friends, family hate me.. everything I do, it's like nothing in their eyes