There's this guy I work with. He's really cool and I hope we can become good friends. But I also have a weird crush on him. I say weird because I have no interest in dating him; I just want to have sex with him. And it's not even necessarily that I have no interest in dating him, I just know we wouldn't work out together. But that doesn't stop me from wanting to do terrible, dirty things with him. Unfortunately I don't believe in friends with benefits, and even if I did, he's got a girlfriend, so I'd never do anything with him. I really just want to be his friend more than anything tbh.
honestly how do you become natural with people. How do you just talk? What talk do you talk about? Its so much hard work. I know many would just say "oh just do it." .... I know that but how do i think first before i actually make conversations? How can you be yourself? Im not an honest person because its either i have no normal thought to share, does not want them shared because they sound like im bragging or either they sound too depressing. I meet people but its either they would only talk to me like im an adult mother or would talk to me about stuff or ask insights. I want a personi can talk to like a normal human being woth heavy inside
This guy who I'm starting to become friends with came in to work today after having 5 or 6 beers at the bar with his friends. He was a lot more upbeat than usual. Makes me want to spend more time with him outside of work.
I make fursonas for friends and family just because I think it's fun to associate people with animals they remind me of. Sometimes they ask me to do it, but I mostly just do it for my own entertainment.
There's this friend of mine and he baffles me. He knows a lot of chicks because he's the artsy type and yet he remains single. I don't get it, he's almost forty! He's not gay or a virgin btw. He told me long ago that being in a relationship suffocates him. He's quite self centered too. But I mean... He's not a monk. Doesn't he need sex at least? He acts like he's superior to sex, masturbating and porn.
I feel like no one really believes in me anymore in any way - neither in the prospect of me being okay, nor in the actual prospect of there being things wrong with me - kind of a paradox. Ah, with friends like these...
I told myself i just gonna let go, it's not time yet, don't hope for a lot yet, for now he's just a friend, he's just a classmate... i should just focus on studying and for myself to become a better woman first... and i shouldn't try to suppress my feelings, just let it flow and it will go away when the time comes... but it really is hard when i see him almost everyday, and it really is impossible to stop feeling suffocated whenever he's next to me... it's impossible for my heart to stop beating faster when we talk... i need space to sort out my feelings, i don't know how long... but i don't have it because wether i want to or not we have to talk to each other... im confused with what i should do
Someone got mad at me and I apologized later than I was supposed to and then they said that I shouldn't apologize. Now I'm confused.
i like this guy a lot... but he's way too good for me... like in every aspect he's better than i am and i felt like he should never know i like him? and i felt bad cause my friends know that i like him... while i felt like im too shameful to even like him? even more shameful that i thought he might feel the same... i dont know i just want to get this off of my chest...
So my best friend is gay and she started dating someone they are now dating for 6months and she totally forgot about me.. i asked her a million times to go to the movies or a drink or something but she is always busy with her and if she isn't she brings her along. I have a boyfriend and I always make time for her I don't know why she can't do the same.