I have this fear that if I show interest in someone - and I mean platonic OR romantic interest - I'll be ridiculed. It's not just rejection I'm scared of, but people laughing to my face or behind my back because of how pathetic I am, trying to be their friend when I'm not even that interesting or fun/pleasant to hang around with.
i have a boyfriend but I invited my homegirl over because I have this weird urge to eat her pussy. we double date with our boyfriends sometimes, we're both in the same industry.. I just admire her grind and she's pretty and she's like me... we didn't explicitly say that's what going down but I hope she understood how I meant it.. I won't force it.. I guess i only want to cause she revealed she hooked up with girls in her past.
I'm worried that you will never be back. You lost touch and I have tried to stay okay through it but all it has done is made me sad. I will keep waiting. I'm scared if I see you it'll be because you want to say goodbye. I'm holding onto you, i'm still yours. I'm not letting anyone in because they aren't you, they aren't good enough for me, they don't make me smile like you do, they aren't you. I'm still here. Number hasn't changed but even if you dont have it, you have a way of getting to me. Come back if you want to, if you're ready, if you love me like I love you. Even Time I hear someone describe true love, or every time I tell people how I know what true love is, it's always us, our story. I believe everyone has that one in their life, and I believe it because it's you. I know it sounds like lines or convincing words just to get you back, but this is how i've been since you've been gone. Please look for me. Talk to me, just come back please. I'll get high and pour my heart out if you want to hear it, i'll get drunk and we call yell at each other to finally fight and get out what has been building up lol. Whatever you need i'm here
why are my two closest friends incels. one thinks the friendzone exists and one thinks that modern times ruined all of our women because they wont talk to him. They think i am likeminded. Worst part is that i am too afraid to call em out on their bullshit. might hurt their feelings.
I need advice, because this is something I can't ask the people I know. A year ago, my sister (19 yo) had a "friend" (18 yo) who freeloaded at her apartment, ate her food and gave nothing in return. That girl had her own apartment but "didn't like being alone", she wasn't in school and didn't have a job either. She had mental health issues and depended on my sister emotionally as well.She constantly dragged my sister into night clubs even when my sister had early morning shifts, and the two of them would blow money on alcohol. This all took a toll on my sister, who was suffering from depression and stress from work. When our mother, our other sister and I told her to cut that girl out of her life so she could focus on her own health. My mother also gave the girl advice on how she could get help for her own situation. We all agreed that it'd be best for my sister to not see that girl again so the situation wouldn't repeat. However, my sister told me that in the past several months she actually has been hanging out with that girl. I don't know if that girl is borrowing money (without ever returning it) from my sister again, but my sister tells me that everything is fine. She also told me not to tell mom or anyone about this "so they don't worry and nag her again", but I'm honestly a little worried about her. Right now, she is depressed and no longer has a job. Should I tell my mother after all, that my sister has kept in touch with the girl who was dependent on her?
I had unintentionally been ignoring my friends because of the hurt they unknowingly caused me. I know it’s my fault that I fall asleep in class and make a fool of my self and they are just trying to help me by advising me but the way they put it hurts me a lot. I don’t care about others but I care about their view on me bc we’re friends. I’m now struggling to reply to them and honestly, I think I just made a rift because of all the internal hurt that has been compiling in me. I didn’t want this to happen but I caused it. I’m a shitty friend for doing this. This sucks too much and I’m coward because of I’ve been phobic of closer relationships since my falling out with my one of best friends. I don’t want a repeat of that. I’m shitty and I own up to that. This may seem minor but these internal battle I have been facing for so long has made me do rash decisions. I’m sorry guys for being a coward. I’m sorry for not being enough. I’m sorry and I hope one day we’ll forgive each other because I can’t trust you guys yet, not wholly.
I'm just nobody, even around my friends. They come when they feel they need to, but they are away when I need them, even forget who I am. Sigh, I hate being nice to people.
Gonna go to the Birthday Party of a friend's girlfriend in a few hours. I do not even want to go there, I just go because some of the people there are invited to my birthday-party next week and it would be utmost hypocritical if I wouldn't go...well, at least there are free drinks and weed...
I wish I could get over my crush so I can find someone else. Why can't my stupid ass brain figure out he's probably not into me? He has a girlfriend. I'm lucky he even wants to be friends with me. I should take what I can get and fucking move on. But I can't stop my heart from fluttering when he says my name. I can't stop my cheeks from blushing when we make eye contact. I can't stop my lips from smiling just being around him. I have no control and I hate it.
My brother got annoyed because I've been texting him a lot today. I understand that, some days you just don't feel so sociable. But every time I make him annoyed, which isn't even that often, I feel like I'm the worst sister ever and an inconsiderate person. I feel terrible right now. I don't know why I react like this.