I got ur name tatted on my arm so we both ball till my dying days.
I'm a college student in a university and honestly I'm very lonely. I just don't have any friends. My friends from high school they were all in a community college and I'm the only one who's in the university. Plus they were bullies too and treats me very awful during high school. I never really have good friends and the only good friend I had is one and she's actually is gone... ....after then I never really made good friends. socialization is just hard for me and I don't know what's wrong with me. I just know I'm not the most sociable person and I get bullied a lot since elementary. I kinda grew up mostly kept home by my parents never really let me go outside and meet other kids. So maybe that has a contribution to that. But college is just a different thing. It's not the same as pre-school, elementary, middle school and high school. It's a larger community and much more people around. It's just hard. I'm also majoring in a hard subject which I'm planning to change it to something i enjoy better becuase it's taking away my sleeping hours, my rest hours as well as work.. I'm just depressed and I spend most of my time alone just have no one to talk to. How do you actually meet new people? how do you socialize with people as an adult? I'm already a sophomore and I still haven't met new people. I don't dorm either because I have money issues. I feel like I'm just awkward removing the social in it. I don't know or maybe people might have feel some bad vibe on me. But I'm just alone and I could be a good friend. I care for people. I just wanted a friend seriously to hang out with and at least someone that also calls me a friend. I'm so tired of being alone.. At the same time I'm actually kinda scared of growing old alone where nobody will care for me and die in a place where nobody will bury me. I shouldn't think about that but thinking about my life now, I'm too depressed and I wanna kill myself but I can't kill myself because I have no one to care of my body for me.. I don't want my body to just be hanging in there like a trash.. I at least just want a friend to care.. Maybe if I have one I wouldn't be depressed like this despite of my depression and busy lifestyle. I will make time for my friends if I have to. I will make time for myself if I have to.
I met a girl, online, in L4D2. It started with only playing games togerher for a while but after some time, as i started to know her, i kinda liked her. I was constantly making plans to see her in real life but she was in another country. Anyway, this girl had another friend he met online and he always joined us in our games. So we become friends with him as well. One day, we were talking with this dude and i told him that i like her. He encouraged me to talk to her. Pusshed me in fact. He said "now is the time, i know she likes you too it's obvious" bla bla. It seemed like a good idea. I talked to her and before i even had to chance to say her that i like her, we started to fight about something entirely different and that fight got intense real quick. We started screaming at each other and finally she deleted me. I was gonna talk to him about it but i realised he deleted me as well. So i suspected he has something to do with this. Even if not, we were friends too, why would he delete me like that, the subject we fought about was not related to him. Anyway we didn't speak for like 3 months. One night, i was out of the cinema. I watched Star Wars The Force Awakens. It was the premiere. I knew that guys was a Star Wars fan and i knew he has to wait 1 week before he can see that film. So i send him a message and spoiled the ending of the fim for him. He cursed me and deleted my contact number as well. At the time i tought it was funny but now i see it was really mean. How do i know it's mean? Because i would fucking get furious if someone would've spoil that movie for me. Anyway i know for a story that didn't even matter that much and too long for it's reader. The action i take seems like a total dick move to me and i had to share it somewhere. Because the people around me saying it's not a big deal because they don't get it so it's not a confession when it's like that. Maybe someone here can relate. Thank you for reading.
The only thing I look forward to on weekends is sleeping without having to set an alarm
Maybe I am too young to be on here since I am only ten but something really bad happened to me yesterday. My parents are far away right now and aren’t coming back for another week. Because of this my cousin who is 19 is staying at our house to take care of me and my brother who is 12. And I’m a boy too by the way. All day yesterday my cousin said I was misbehaving and that if I didn’t stop misbehaving he would punish me. I didn’t know what I was doing wrong but he kept saying I was being bad. Then later when I spilled water on the table by accident that’s when he really went crazy. He said he had enough and took me to the basement and told me to stay there until he told me to come out. So I stayed in the basement for a really really really long time. Like for an hour. And when I couldn’t take it anymore I came out. When he saw me he started screaming saying that I wasn’t supposed to come out until he said so. I said sorry but he dragged me back to the basement by my hair and I was crying and I kept saying I was sorry. Then in the basement he tied me up to this pipe with a metal wire to make sure I wouldn’t come out this time. It hurt a lot and the wire was sharp and it cut me and made my wrists drip blood. Then he was screaming about how I’m stupid and a lot of other stuff I’m not allowed to say. He started spanking me so hard that it gave me bruises and I started crying even harder. And I never cry when other people spank me. Then he unzipped his pants and he started doing something weird. I don’t know what he was doing but when he finished he started peeing on me but it was weird because it wasn’t like normal pee. It was different. It was so gross I seriously wished I wasn’t alive anymore. Then he left and didn’t come back until the next morning. And I only know it was the next morning because after he untied me and took me upstairs the clock on the microwave said 10 am. So yeah. And he said to just forget about everything that happened and to never talk about it to anyone. I am really really mad and I hate him for doing that but I am more afraid than mad. And he is not letting me call my parents on the phone. He hit me when I tried calling. He has started being mean to my brother too but not as bad as he was with me. I am so scared he will go crazy like that again and have no idea what I should do. I don’t want to stay with this person for a entire week. I had no idea he was so scary.
I miss my brother. He's the only one who wants to listen to hardbass with me.
when your roommate is a drama queen. she exaggerates everything and lies a lot
I always told myself that I don't want to get close to anyone but the truth is that I want someone to see the worst parts of me and tell me that they accept me despite those things. Sometimes I have to remind myself that we all are human, that everyone has weak points and not just me. But I guess I want to love someone and be loved too.
I jokingly finger-gunned @ this kid and he was like "why are you shooting at me? Is it cause I'm black?" FML.
My friend is such a pussy. Like I'm only really his friend because he had a crush on me in high school and I felt bad saying no. But there really is no other option. He hates sports, is vegan, always in his feelings and upset about something. Anyway he started dating this girl like 6 months ago I'm not sure how he convinced her to say yes but he did. Not long into the relationship he started telling me that she was distant and he wasn't sure what he did wrong blah blah. I spoke to the girl and she told me what I already knew. He was a pussy. But she liked him being a pussy, just not in the bedroom. The thought of him being a crying mess if she were to break up with him is nightmare material. So I asked her if she was interested in a 3 some with me and my bf. She accepted and now I just let them fuck every week or so. I join in sometimes, but it doesn't bother me as our relationship is built on far more than sex. I just hate that me feeling bad for someone who won't help themselves has snowballed into this. Thank you anonymous people of the Internet. I look forward to your comments.... I think