I missed my teenage years because my parents expect me to act like them. As a kid, I stayed home in my house and kids are not invited in because my dad doesnt want them too. So i acquired an antisocial attitude until at my teenage years. Now Im in my 20s and i still feel like going back to my teens because I never had a social life in those times. When i was in high school, I wake up, go to classes, alone, then go home tired and sleep then do homework, social media where nobody talks to me then sleep. The cycle repeats everyday. Now its the same in college. Though a larger community, and when I approach people they were different, not a teenager mindset and I still am.. so im considered odd to them because I act like a teenager. But for me i feel like i was in a comma for so long woke up and suddenly people around me are different.. and as if i never changed. Just because I never had a social life in high school. And continues to be the same in college. Like now that im an adult and suddenly given a freedom, im adapting to my age how people my age act like but its honestly difficult. And i realized life does not exist without people around us. And all this time i was always been dead inside because life with people does exist as if i dont exist.
My friend asked if I could read her essay and tell her if there's something she should change or add. I turned her down because I've been tired (four days after she asked me because I was nervous about saying no) and now I feel bad. I've helped her with school stuff before, though... Should I have agreed after all?
I'm not sure how to word this properly, but I really want to share my excitement somewhere... I think I'm in my first poly relationship. I'm kinda dating this girl who has a boyfriend and he knows me and likes me, he's okay with her dating me and even encourages her to. I say I'm kinda dating her because we do everything a couple would do- we've even agreed that if we officially "declared" a relationship nothing would really change- but we haven't taken that step and officially declared it either. But she says she considers me her girlfriend, so I consider her mine too. And it feels so nice. I love her so much. I know a lot of people frown on poly relationships or think that it's cheating somehow, but no one is sneaking around here. No secrets are being kept. No lies are being told. It really is possible to love more than one person. And I'm so happy to be part of that.
Being in a career I love so much I don't look forward to my days off anymore. In school days I always got something planned with friends for the weekend but it all changed and that sums up my resolutions for next year I'm going to try to make time for everyone else not just myself and family.
I love my brother and all but his smell is gross
Straight guys, help with a debate! Could Michael Biehn in the first Terminator get it?
My friend asked me via texting how my studying is going. It's going horribly. I told her I'm behind on "some courses", she asked what was up. The real reasons for it are laziness, depression and anxiety but I don't really know if I'd want her to know about that. But I don't want to lie either, so I don't know what to say.
Why do I try and reach out to my ex friends even today? It's been over three years since I walked away from them. Now they don't want anything to do with me anymore.
Though I'm two years older than my sister, I sometimes ask her advice on what to do in social situations, and also stuff like "Did anything I say sound rude in the conversation we were just in?". So I'm acting more like a little sister and I think I shouldn't. I asked her if it's a bother that I keep asking her that stuff and she said no, but I still think I should stop doing it. Not knowing if I've been behaving in an acceptable way makes me anxious, though, but in most situations there's no one to ask about it so I think I should get used to the uncertainty.
This is gonna be kind of explicit, but: I've got a gay crush on this girl I'm friends with. And the feeling is mutual. We've agreed that we should totally hook up sometime, since her boyfriend is into girl-on-girl love and wants to watch. I'm so excited for both of us to find out what sex with a girl is like! So excited, in fact, that I masturbated thinking of it just now, and I had a squirting orgasm for the first time in ages. She's just so damn hot.