I feel so stuck in life. seems like alot of ones my age have it together. I still can't figure out how to get to who I want to be.😩
I never know what to say when friends ask you for your honest opinion about something like a new hair cut or possible boyfriend or whatever, when my honest opinion is that it's shit. On the one hand, lying isn't nice, but on the other hand, I don't want to spoil something for them just because of MY opinion. I know what it feels like when you're really happy and enthusiastic about something and then someone comes and tells you it sucks. It feels bad, even when you asked them.
My friends got in but I didn't. Ouch.
Co-worker:' Why did you quit? You better have a good excuse!' Me:'I broke my back'...Co-worker:'Damn that's a good excuse! You okay!?' Me:' I will be, thanks for asking!' C:
I want to have an internet friend.. someone give me their twitter @
I never find any friends anywhere. The only time I was able to do that was in kindergarten and elementary school, and all friends I have today are from that time. They went to high school with me so I wasn't friendless there, but after that I realized my problem. Whenever I was somewhere, summer camps or sports club, I didn't find friends. I've been in college for over a year now and I haven't found any friends.The thing is, it's not that I don't talk to people - I'm shy so I barely do it, but in the end you always end up talking to someone or hanging out with someone. But it never gets deep enough to call someone a friend, it never happens that either one of us has the desire to hang out in private or talk about feelings or whatever. I already can see myself being forever lonely, because all my childhood friends are leaving the city.
My best friend wants to hang out with my sister more than she wants to hang out with me, and it hurts so fucking bad... My sister steals all of my friends, every single one. They all like her more than me because I'm a fucking loser.
In the end, i'm just an outsider from every group i belong to.
My friend slept over my house for the first time. We've been wanting to have sleep overs since we were kids, and we finally got to have one as adults. She ended up showing up very late. She spent most of her time on her phone talking to her boyfriend and other people. We planned to stay up late but she went right to sleep. She spent all night snoring and farting very loudly. I got no sleep at all and my room stunk. She ended up leaving as soon as she woke up. I felt the whole thing was a complete waste of time and I do not want a repeat of this. We hardly talked and she was mostly concerned with trying to get me to drink alcohol. I tell her that I don't like drinking but for some reason everyone I know wants to see me get drunk.
I think I'm in love with him... No one is allowed to know, but I just want to scream to the world how much he means to me.