I’m so jealous of my best friend, to the extent that I just want to cut off contact with her. She’s pretty, academically successful, and middle class. I’ve always been jealous of her and we have always been quite competitive academically but now I just feel like everything goes right in her life with her hardly even trying. She cheats and lies to get out of exams or to do well in them and has stolen my work and others’ work in the past, yet she still views herself as deserving of every good grade she has ever achieved She’s just got into one of the best universities in the country and I know I need to act happy for her but I feel that it’s unjust that she’s got in largely because of her arrogance, accent, expensive extracurricular activities and cheating. I can hardly talk about it without the contempt and anger showing on my face. It’s all everyone is going to be talking to her about for weeks though. I know this is childish and pathetic but I just wish I had friends whose sole purpose didn’t seem to be to make me feel worthless and jealous.
Why does he talk about politics and economy so much? I don't care and if I cared I wouldn't agree with 90% of what he says.
You know you're doggo really loves you when you find them asleep in your closet 💜
Some internet friends decided they wanted to mail around a traveling journal of sorts for all of us to write in, and I agreed to participate. The person before me took several months to get to me because they ran into some troubles and couldn't afford to ship it- but it was no big deal, I didn't mind. Then I finally got it, and I too fell on hard times. My grandpa was sick for weeks and then eventually passed. Then three other family members passed away in the following weeks. Work started getting busy for the Christmas season, and it only got worse the closer it got to Christmas. I and everyone else got some kind of flu-like virus. I had to spend every last cent on Christmas gifts because my dad conveniently decided to not pay the phone bill, and my mom had to cover it, leaving nothing extra for Christmas. Just thing after thing kept happening where I didn't have the time or money to send the journal. And on top of that I initially had anxiety over what to even write in it. I've had it for a couple months, about as long as the person before me, but one of my friends keeps hounding me about it and making me feel so immensely guilty for still having it. I can't apologize any more, I couldn't control the things that happened. But I feel so awful. I feel like I ruin everything, and I shouldn't have even tried to write in it. I should have just passed it on without writing in it, or even just never agreed to participate at all. I'm never doing something like this again. The universe always finds ways to make me struggle with deadlines. And I'm tired of trying to fight it and just disappointing the people I care about.
I've been on a app called Amino, I roleplay there with some friends. It gives and helps me look at things in a different perspective, learn from it in a way. out of roleplay to real life. I met 3 great guy friends and my other girl friend. We end up dating one another in roleplay but things took a bit further. We end up catching feelings for one another in real life out of roleplay and we didn't care at all, we were happy. As for me on the other hand, I found my ideal type on role play and in real life with in one of my 3 guy friends. We've done everything together but, soon enough another friend of mine decided to break my relationship I had with my significant other. Causing to take me away from him and I wasn't able to stop my friend. Jealousy got in the way and things got awkward with my friends and I, including my significant other. Although timed passed, me and him made up and our feelings became much more stronger, so everything went back the way it was. That's until reality came, we got busy and didn't have time for one another, even if we did make time for it. Sadly my guy friends went ghost on us, leaving me and my girlfriend by ourselves waiting for their return. More time passed of course and they came back, but everything changed.. we didnt share laughs or show affection and support like we used too. Relationships between one another went.. missing, in a way. The little spark we had for one another was there and we are trying to bring it back and make it bigger... 2/3 of the boys went ghost again but my friend and I have the other on Skype, we talk and my friend and I ask how are the other two since they know eachother. He lets us know how things are between the 3 of them but.. Again we don't talk the same as we use too, the guys would reply back to my friend and me once a day or even more than a few. My friend's significant other currently left her, after a promise of not leaving her when he actually did. So I am currently giving her my absoutle positivity I have very little left. As for mine, I wait and wait and wait... and wait to get a text from him, and I do get it. I'd rather get one text from him than not get one from him at all. Even so me and him do show signs we do like eachother still, but sometimes i think otherwise... and it hurts. I miss the group and what we had together, I even miss him. He was my first love but sadly Everything changed now and the little spark we have is at the point of going out now.
I'm a girl..Straight, but in my school everyone thought i'm a lesbian because the way i act and talk..And i have a crush on my classmate named Jay, and he always tease me and treat me like i'm really a boy like im one of their gang...The thing is he's crossing the personal space, like putting his hands around my neck my jokingly say "i love you"... He usually pat my head every morning like im a dog...Were close, very close...and i can't help my self thinking that we're more than friends...That he likes me too...
Some friends who I haven't seen in ages wanted to go on a little vacation with me between Christmas and New Year's Eve. I had to cancel last minute and they were quite mad at me. I can understand them. The whole reason why we haven't seen each other for so long was because I've cancelled plans a lot over the last year, or haven't agreed to any plans in the first place at all. The reason for it is that I have a chronic illness, which I haven't told them about. I know it's more or less my own fault if I don't tell them, and I know I should tell them. But I hesitate to do so... I am embarrassed about the nature of my illness, it has to do a lot with things that "you don't talk about" and with things that I'm self conscious about. And I'm generally someone who hates talking about illness or my body. Don't know why, but even when I just have the flu I can't say that to someone, I just try to be as vague as possible. I know that if I tell them about it, I won't ever be able to look them in the eyes without having some degree of embarrassment, but if I don't, they will probably end the friendship because they think I don't care.
I'm going to write my thoughts down here just for the sake of getting them out of my system and getting more insight in my own feelings: 8 years ago I was 17 and I met a guy I immediatly felt a connection with. I never fell in love easily but with him the butterflies hit my stomach right from the first glanse. He rapidly showed interest in me and for the short time we had to spend together (read: 9 days), we had a lot of fun. I knew that somehow I would never be the same person as before. I learned a lot from him about life. On our last day, we kissed and somehow I both felt scared and at peace. We didn't stay in contact with each other and both went on with our lives. I reconnected with my ex and he had a new girlfriend very soon after meeting each other. Now I am in a relationship with someone who I really love and cherish and want to start trying to have a child. This guy also seems to be in a happy relationship to with a nice girl now. However: even though we don't do anything to contact each other and live kinda far away, two curious things are happening: 1) I still think a lot about him and wonder what he is doing, what he would say about certain things, etc... and 2) somehow we meet eachother once (sometimes twice) a year without knewing the other person would be in that place. At those times we smile at each other as if we know each other very well and the connection is still there. One time at a bar, my only friend who knows about him was with me and she said he could not stop looking at me (so i'm not imagining things). I did nothing with that information, but I keep thinking about it. I do wonder how long things will be going on like this... Don't get me wrong: I do NOT intent on cheating on my current partner or leaving him for whatever reason. I already feel guilty for just thinking about someone else sometimes. I searched for explanations on both psychological sites and spiritual ones. But I'm nog a big believer of spiritual stuff (like soul mates and all) and psychology did not give any answers neither. For now, my own explanation is: we meet more than one person in our life who we really connect with. It is OK to aknowledge it when you meet such person while being in a relationship, but you do not have to act on it. As for me, I think he kinda figured this out too and just knows it could have worked out with me too, but life and maybe fate has decided otherwise, and that is OK. (This turned out longer than I expected... whoops!)
Merry Christmas everyone!! I don't carry on religion aspect but I like to take it as a resource the tale of Santa Claus and giving out presents to the good as a reward of all accomplishments and kindness. I'm thankful for the roof above my head, food on the table, family, and having the money to afford the things I want/need.
I just want to wish anyone reading this a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. If things are good for you, I hope they stay that way. If this year was hard on you, I hope next year is better. I wish you all the best.