I'm a little jealous of my sister's body but she's jealous of mine. We don't resent each other over this or anything but it's still a bit unfortunate. We both know that grass always seems greener on the other side, yet we continue to feel envy. It's dumb.
Can't you see that I treat you differently than I treat everyone else? Can't you see how wonderstruck I am when you look into my eyes? Can't you tell that I melt whenever we touch? You make me feel so vulnerable and yet so safe, like I'm a child again with a schoolgirl crush. But I don't think you see it.
I hope my best friend's boyfriend knows how lucky he is to have her. I'd give anything to have a girl like her. I'm glad he treats her right, it's what she deserves.
I'm not social enough for friendships. The ideal friendship for me would be someone who I can summon only when I really need them (or when they really need me), to go somewhere to or to discuss a problem, no matter if that's once a month or once a year, and they're okay with not doing anything for ages, all while still being casual and intimate with each other as if we'd meet daily. But I've never met anyone ever who is okay with that, people always want to hang out frequently just for the sake of seeing each other... which is normal, of course, but I just can't do casual hanging out.
Why do people constantly preach about how you should remove toxic people and friendships that don't make you happy from your life, but as soon as you cut contact with someone, you're the asshole? Is it so unthinkable that YOU could be the toxic person for me?
Ah damn, I actually rely on imaginary friends to try and feel less lonely.
Somehow the modern phone culture destroyed my oldest friendships. My best friend since kindergarten suddenly turned into an instagrammer, and whenever we do something, we others or just I have to wait for her while she's taking some pictures for her story. Then I always sit there awkwardly, watching her taking a picture of her (very ordinary) coffee cup and finding the perfect editing tool, and I ask myself if there even is anyone who cares about her drinking a coffee while it's 7°C outside while she feels #blessed - but apparently she's sure that there are enough people who are more important than me in this moment. It's not really her fault, but I just can't identify with this culture. I don't want to talk about how many followers you should have to not be a loser, and I always find it very questionable when girls shame other girls for having one night stands but then go and post photos that are half cleavage or ass-pics in a bikini (you can guess it, she's one of those girls). My other best friend is another sort of "one of those": he's the kind who never answer your texts, but then when you hang out with them, they're always on their phone. You tell a story, they stare at the screen. They say " Oh yeah I'm listening I can multitask", but then you stop mid sentence to check if they ARE listening, and they just continue typing until, after a few minutes, they look up and say "Oh sorry, what?" The last few months I had better conversations with people I had literally just met a few hours ago than with my best friends, just because they can't keep a conversation up for more than some minutes until it's time to check the phone. I hate it.
When I was about 18, I was just starting to figure out my sexuality and I was just beginning to come to terms with my attraction to women. I developed a crush on one of my close friends, and I ended up telling her about it even though I knew she didn't like me back. She was nice about it, she actually said she was flattered, but just wasn't gay. Flash forward to today, 4 years later. This friend and I aren't as close as we used to be, but we still care about each other a lot, adulting just got in the way of being able to spend time together. She messages me today and says she's now dating a mutual friend of ours... who is a girl. I'm really happy for them, and honestly I think they're great for each other. But I can't help but feel the tiniest bit jealous. Like why couldn't you have realized you were bi when I had a crush on you? But, I'm glad she's finally figured out who she is and I'm glad they ended up together. I just can't help but wonder if me confessing my love for her actually made her contemplate her sexuality or if it led to this somehow. Guess I'll never know.
I have a small crush on this girl at work. I doubt she's even remotely interested, and while there's a possibility of her being bi, it's not likely. But I'd like to get to know her and maybe be friends with her cause she seems really nice and like a cool person to hang out with. How do I do that? Should I send her a friend request on Facebook, or will that creep her out? Should I just invite her to go hang out, or is it weird if I come up out of nowhere to invite her somewhere? How do humans socialize?
I was worried she would grow feelings that would complicate out friendship if we had sex... Now here I am feeling jealous and sad knowing she's hanging out with another dude right now. What the hell, brain?