This will be strange and contradictory, but please continue reading: Well, I have almost no self-confidence and suffer of severe selfhatred, for I'm the stereotypical awkward nerd - or rather: have become that over the last few years - yet, I seem to have some form of charisma, as I'm usually to be the one my peers tend to when decisions have to be made...also because people straight up told me that I'm "damn charismatic"...I am peticularly confused by that, and would really like to straighten out all unnecessary awkwardness and become a normie (again?) , but I hardly know where to start and I'm to "anxious" to go out. Guess it's time to grow a pair, isn't it.
I would really like to trade pics and chat with attractive straight-curious guys around my age (35) or younger. I'm gay and would be down for anything from casual thoughts and experience stories to full on sexting. Kik turningitred
The boyfriend of a girl I went to camp with 8 years ago sent me a friend request. I don't know him and I haven't talked to his girlfriend in years. He sent me a friend request on their joint account awhile ago too and I rejected it. I don't want to block him and risk offending them, but I'm also not going to accept his friend request. I try to not accept requests from people I don't know.
At 5am I had a last drink with an old friend who is terminally ill. We used to get drunk & giggle & write awful poetry (like 20+ years ago). We got mildly tipsy this morning and giggled and pretended it was just "for old time's sake" and not The End. I hope she got what she needed out of it. I've been drinking all day since. Afraid to be sober. I'm pretty sure today was her last day.
After all these years Im gonna say good bye...Will i regret this?
hmmm should i leave her alone or should i send her a meme...choices.....
I'm not sure how to have friends. Most of the people I know only talk to me when they need something or to check if they still have a foot in the door. I think I'm boring. I think I crave attention. I literally have to tell myself to stop caring about someone so I dont end up texting them a second time because they haven't replied but read. At work I listen to YouTube videos on what not to do, how not to act around girls, or how to be more interesting. I study body language so I can tell if someone wants to escape a conversation, even been looking into micro-expressions. I dont know how to be social still but I can tell what someone is feeling from a distance. I can tell when someone needs a hug or if they're going through emotions. I know all these things but dont know how to talk to people because now I can tell when their umcomfortable.. sighs.
I'm the kind of person who don't have a lot of friends. I don't also have a social media except Youtube and Snapchat (no one even bother to respond at me here). I also don't watch TV and use my laptop only for youtube and learning things and school work. So I lived in a farm with no technology for one year with other 4 more people. Most of them didn't survive. One only stayed for 3 months and went back to where he came from. Some get so frustrated that they're so eager to use their smartphones. To me though, I made new friends, and the life there made me not use my smartphone more but living there also got me ended up creating Instagram, Twitter, and reviving my FB. I just learned how technology is really a part of society and nobody can live and think now without it. Me I can but socially wise, it's the key to make a connection and the only key to get away from depression (cuz I'm alone and friendless). So I have to adapt too... Cuz having people around makes me happier....
I prefer being alone than being with people who are just plain out disrespectful and debative as well as well being with people who treats me horribly. I'll just have to work hard to find good ones.
Sometimes when awkwardness happens, I just break the ice. It makes it more awkward to some people but to me it's less awkward just by the fact that awkwardness is a human thing and breaking the ice just illustrate how much of a human we really are. Silly and always silly.