I'm so passive and apathetic and lazy...
sooo the guy I confessed to...ignored my confession and posted s snap of some girl
I had a sex dream about a friend today. Not just any friend - I've known her longer than I've known my own girlfriend. She had a thing for me back when we started talking, but it wasn't mutual. At the time, my heart ached over my separation with my first love. Since I moved on from that, there's been more women who never really pinned me down like the first. This old friend of mine and I had a silent phase, I think because she was hurting. We've been talking again, though, but I've found someone who's got me pinned harder than I've ever been. She's amazing. And here I am, finally attracted to the one I denied for years. Funny how life works. It doesn't compete with my feelings for my girlfriend, though. I never said the words to anyone, including her, but I think I'm in love. Oh, life.
i hate how everyone around my age is... so dumb? I mean everyone like parties and going to amusement parks but I hate those things, it's too loud, to many people and kids are just everywhere? plus why do people even like kids? I can relate in certain areas but It still sucks
why are my two closest friends incels. one thinks the friendzone exists and one thinks that modern times ruined all of our women because they wont talk to him. They think i am likeminded. Worst part is that i am too afraid to call em out on their bullshit. might hurt their feelings.
Why does everyone think that if you care for someone, you HAVE to be dating? Does nobody know what platonic care is anymore? This is why I can't care about others because people attempt to shove me into a relationship when they sense even the slightest ounce of remote appreciation for someone from me.
Yesterday was my class picture day. We happy, laughing, pose, taking selfies and else. And then time to change the outfit. We change the outfit and waiting for the photographer to prepare the set, while we checking each other appearances to make sure it will be perfect. Then my crush apporach me, asking me to fix his tie. The problem is me and him are not talking for like a whole year and he was dating my friends that knowing my feeling for him—they broke up already. I no longer have feelings for him. But OH MY GOD, me fixing his tie is the first time I fall for him—also my way to flirt with him—and it started to flooding me with those memories all over again. I'm so nervous, sweating, my hands are shaking. Good thing I didn't just hug hin right there. Fyi, everybody in class knkw about that and they teasing me again for that -.-
I shouldn't have kissed her. Even though we were both a bit drunk, and in the end we agreed that it wasn't the best course of action, and we only kissed and nothing else. But all these feelings that were buried for over 10 years now have resurfaced and flourished. And I feel like a stupid teen all over again, even though I'm over 40.
I fell in love with a guy, at first it was only a crush and I thought it wouldn't last long. But now he is constantly on my mind and I can't think of anything else than him being next to me, or him kissing me. It wouldn't be that bad to love him if he wasn't gay and had a boyfriend. And this isn't the only problem. I got into a relationship now, with a guy I am like only physically attracted to. I feel a really painfull sting everytime I think about the guy I really love.
he's so kind and humble to everyone but sometimes i feel like he has this special treatment to me, but i'm afraid it just my feeling and hurt me in the end by knowing the truth that he actually just act usual and didn't have the same feeling as me.