I'm in love with you and all these little things

My sister thinks I'm bisexual😳 Because I thought I like her And I DONT I just want to be her 😣 as she is every thing I want to be and now she's a slut so jk😜

She's the most supportive and uplifting friend I've ever known. She encourages me to try new things and to never stop at becoming my best self. She'll laugh at even my most ridiculous jokes, and her eyes light up even with the slightest smile I bring to her face. She sings and plays the guitar like a dream. She's the one I'm in love with. She's the one I'm completely smitten over. Yet, she can't see it, she's completely oblivious, and I'm just as confused about my feelings as well.

She has a boyfriend. This is so devastating

I don't need any advice and feel free to insult or troll. There's this girl who comes over my apartment from 10pm when she gets off work till 2am when she's expected home. She comes over and we always end up naked in my bedroom in the dark just talking while she teases me, but she won't fuck me because she's WAITING to be the girlfriend of this guy. Shes been waiting almost two years. They fuck, spend time together and take those lovey dovey photos but he won't make her his girlfriend. I think his playing her to be honest. I think his already getting the things he want from her so why make it official. I did use to have feelings for this girl a year ago and when she finally gave up on him back then we dated for less than a week. i broke up with her because i knew one day she would crush my heart the moment he decided he wanted her and the only reason she gave up was because he moved. Turned out he didnt move far. when we were naked in bed she talks about how it hurts that he wont make her his girlfriend. I listen and for awhile held my tongue because I knew the denial she was in was to thick. I don't feel that way about her like I did but we still lay up in my bed naked and talk. I recentlu told her I didnt want to do it anymore because the teasing is just so fucking annoying and while Im watching her get played I think im playing myself. she keeps wondering if I still want her which I don't because im not about to put myself in a position for a heartbreak. The problem is I still ended up naked in bed talking to her.... I hate how shes using me. I feel second which is a horrible feeling. I know im in the friend zone till he finally fucks up but I don't want to be second nor her option. Im such a fucking people pleaser and it sucks because I want to hate her. She complains about him hurting her yet has the nerve to use me and im being a stupid fuck and caving. I don't know why I cant keep her blocked. I don't love her. I dont actually want to be with her because I know Im not the only guy she uses to fill the avoid the guy she wants is avoiding. Sometimes i wish i could tell her to put your fucking clothes on and get the fuck out my life. I know when Im being played. Its never shocking. I just dont know how to stop letting them use me. I dont understand what weakness is actually getting in the way.

why the heck is there so many gay people? Almost every person i have a crush on turns out to be gay. Fuck this shit.

I have to confess that the other day I dated a guy in my house and the situation got hotter and when I pulled his pants down the only thing I could see was a little penis. Feeling so frustrated I made him leave my house. Seriously, I wouldnt have felt anything😁

I love to go nroom nroom nroom just like a train. Did I tell u I like trains? No? Well I got hit by a train today. Not really, jokes. But did I tell u I like trains? Nroom

I hate my emotions. I am like an rollercoaster and I hate it. I feel like I could be a great girlfriend, but never being asked out means, well nope. Do not know why people pass me. I am 22 and I have never been asked out. Kind of wished some one would. I kind of wish a certain person would look at me and say, " You are my other half, and I want to know you better." But nope. Don't get me wrong, I don't mind the friend zone, but being stuck in an forever friend zone, while everyone else is in love. Sucks.

Have you guys think like you feel empty? I feel that way, but I've got family, friends, girlfriend, I'm studying, I mean everything is okay but... I don't know, sometimes I'd like to have a good romantic story to tell about and all that stuff about it. Like the first meeting, the first time you confess your love to her, the rejection from her, I don't know, kind of like a love story... Anyway, thanks for reading this. Hope not be the only guy who feel like this.