I lost my virginity, I know everyone will lose it but the thing is where and when that thing happen is really filthy and what i hate the most is when he's penetrating me, all I can do is think about this guy whom I love for 6 years now( yeah he friendzoned me) but the thing is I felt more alive talking to this guy who friendzoned me than having sex. Everyday it keeps on hunting me.
I tried to be good enough for this guy but I turned out just to be as good as a side chick. He knows I like him but he still fucks around with my feelings like we were texting and out of know where he said "hey sexy" then shortly said "oh sorry wrong person." So I'm going to stand him up. He can go screw himself.
He friend zone me :( so much hurt, how to move on guys? :(
Can people really be "friends " with their exes?
I THINK I'M BAD: I feel guilty, no matter I try to be happy. There's always a guilt left in my heart. I look happy but inside millions of knife is ripping my heart. I have hurted three guys without any intention. They love/like me but I don't like them back. I feel nothing for them. I became friends with them. But it's just friends I cannot give love. They assume that I love them or like them. But I never give any pinch of a sign that I like them too. It's just that I don't want to hurt them, but I was wrong I hurt them much more than I thought. I'm a really friendly person, I don't want to hurt them and I stop talking with them for almost 3 months to make them realize that I wasn't interested on them. Isn't it complicated? so for now, I acted like they never existed and I keep on pretending that I don't see them. Sorry for my english. I know I'm dumb af. For now, all I can say is I hate them all. And I know they already hate me too. It's a mess. I made a HUGE MISTAKE.
I'm finally over my crush. And now I have a new one. But I know that if I keep trying to get his attention, I'll just end up with a broken heart again. I tell myself that I have a chance, but deep down I know that it's impossible. Someone else likes him too... She's a nice girl and she is good friends with him... And she deserves him more than me...
my is alwz thinking about sex I am honey alwz HW to avoid this
i quit on men, independant woman ^^
I miss the way you look at me, the way you would playfully tease me at school, the times you'd walk by me and my friends and call my name smiling at me.
No matter how much I try to change myself for you, I'm still not the girl for you. I won't ever be.