when i was younger i was an old soul. the older i got the more 'valley girl' i've become lol..i'd do anything to bring that old spirit back

My life had always been awfully quiet. I feel like my life had always been on a constant, never ending straight line. The most interesting thing that really ever happens is when something is going on in somebody else's life. I'm 18 and i don't even have a story of my own. Is this what God wrote off my life to be like? Not to sound depressing or anything but do I even have a purpose in life?? I mean really???? I just HAD to win the sperm race out of a million????? Sad to know that someone else that can actually make a difference in this world or be the next Einstein could be born instead of me.

Lately I've been watching anal sex. I kind of wonder how it feels .

I don't like this, feeling tired most of the time. Everyone close to me say I need to do more things to exercise, but I just can't bring myself doing it.

money, money, money. that's all i ever hear about and it's all what i constantly have to worry about. they say it can't bring you happiness but im sure whoever said it wasn't in a financial crisis. one day i would just like to wake up rich so i could fully support my family, especially my mum. just the thought of helping other people in need too just brings a warm fuzzy feeling inside. if that's not a goal then i don't know what is

i know by saying this it makes me a shitty person but i truly TRULY hate my 4yr old nephew with a passion. He's a different kind of annoying and i pray to god he doesnt grow up just like the person he is currently. He's only 4 but his personality is clear, he likes things to go his way, he wont respond or reply back unless if he feels like it, doesnt listen for shit, acts out the biggest tantrums ever and is constantly harassing his little brother. The thing is, it's not even about his parent's parenting at this point, my other nephew turned out the complete opposite, he's the sweetest and nicest kid around it's just his older brother that has issues. He's been like this ever since he was a baby. Even his shrilling voice and stuck up face annoys me now. Im a shitty person that has nothing better to do than to hate a 4yr old but thats why im here and not bitchin about it to other ppl. I mean who knows, things might change when he's older but i cant help but think he might grow up to be a drug addict and homeless by the time hes 17 lol I'll stfu now

Can I Ook you in da Dooker?

The saddest thing i think is that painfully obvious transition from wildin it out at parties from laughing with friends at bars and dancing to loud wrenching music at clubs to coming back to an empty home the second after; coming home to reality. I mean, after laughter comes tears i guess

I feel like i'm surrounded by people 24/7 but i've never been more excluded, isolated and alone in my life. Is this what feels like growing up? lol i just turned 18 and legal 2 secs ago and everything has changed so much

No matter how much you said you'll keep in contact for you will ALWAYS fall out at the end. It's sad but I guess that's life, sooner or later they'll just become a pure bittersweet distant memory. That's the ugly side of post high school.