i cant deal with all the stress i have when talking to people so, i decided to just delete all the apps i use to talk to them because sometimes they are way to much to handle and i dont want to be around them. so i will just not be there for a week or until i feel better
i wont get to compete this weekend... i felt like i was finally taking a step in the direction to have my dreams be a little closer, now i cant. because i got scammed out of some money , i didnt have time to sign up, now all my friends are going. i dont think i want to train this week anymore
I woke up this morning. I slept the whole night, woke up a few moments because of a strange dream, but was able to go right back to sleep. I want my life to change for the better, but into what? I keep seeing ads about being better and to never be complacent, always improve. I am compelled to change, but I am content. I live on my own. I have some debt. I work a regular job. I went to a University, but don't practice my profession. I am no relationship and have no children. I will be 40 in 1 year and 4 months. I try to want something, but I don't want that much. The most I want is a relationship, but I don't see marriage and children in my future.
The past is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. But today is a gift. That is why it is called the present. Let go of yesterday, for it is over. Don't concern yourself with the future, it creates room for fear of the unknown. live in today and be present in the now. Tomorrow will come and with it its new challenges sure enough. So enjoy today.
I have trouble sleeping 7-8 hrs without waking up in between.
things that disappeared in Canada when covid happened: •all other viruses and diseases •the urge to use the bathroom outside your own home (these first 2 are kind of jokes based on regulations that were put in place. thus why common sense is listed below) •common sense •over 100 000 small businesses •family gatherings •trust in the government things that increased (most are a result of the above): •public urination •mental health issue •divorce •entitlement/reliance on the gov. •paranoia/fear •disrespect towards others •mask related infections/acne/etc. •division amongst families now what's really worst? the virus itself or the effects it's having on our society? just something to think about. feel free to add to this list or make your own for your own country.
just got a blue belt with a darce choke. #CSO Tony Ferguson would b proud. i got a kimura today but not on the blue belt only on a white belt , kimura is Rose favourite thats why i want to be the best at it so that she will think im cool :/
did my "back to the office" training for work (it was mandatory even though I've never been out of the office this whole pandemic. but that's beside the point) and 1 video training was all about masks, when you're supposed to wear them, how to wear them, the ones that protect you, etc. the second one was about covid 19 in general and how to prevent it. well the covid specific video, says masks should ONLY be worn by those showing symptoms. while the mask video obviously says everyone should always have them on. this is why I'm skeptical about all these protocols and mandatory things.... because it's so inconsistent that it makes your head hurt. and no, my work training is not the online time I've seen "official" information about this virus that wasn't consistent. the experts can't even agree what should and shouldn't be done. so how are we supposed to know?
my brother is married to my sister in law lol that's weird
I love that the 2 longest relationships I've had have been with a cheater (2 years) and a pathological liar (1.5 years)