I want to lick and suck my crush's fingers, maybe nibble them a bit too. God, his hands are sexy.
Sometimes I wish I was born rich
Sometimes it's better to go home, if you cannot focus at work. Chances are you are exhausted, without feeling sleepy. Rest is more important than money.
A weird thing I do is that I always look on the road when I'm not the driver of the car, as if I was the driver of the car. No matter which seat I'm in; if I'm in the back seat I always sit very uncomfortably to be able to look out of the front. I also don't take in the beauty of the landscape or sleep or read, not even on long rides. I started doing this when I was a kid, I always was afraid of car rides when my dad was driving because he took his eyes off the road so much (probably wasn't even that bad but as a kid I thought he was gonna kill us all if he looked elsewhere for a second) and in my child brain I thought I could compensate that if I looked at the road instead. It became both a habit and kind of a superstition, and I'm not sure if it's healthy.
Do you need help or loans to pay your debt...
I keep notes on my phone that I write when I get anxious it’s an anxiety relieving because now I know I can’t forget it and the anxiety goes away also I keep a phone diary ... these are the best two ways I found how to keep my anxiety undercontrol it doesn’t work with all my anxiety but it eliminates a lot
is it sad that really have No friends left. to talk to? I am left to sit here and write on this page.
I used to love my job, but every day I spend here makes me want to leave a little more. I'm just so tired of the people I work with acting like children 24/7, and I'm tired of getting my hours cut. I'm just tired.
I'm not one of those people who lives by astrology and constantly asks people what their sign is. I don't believe in all that. But there are parts of all that craziness that seem to have something to them. For example, the past weeks have been complete shit for not just me but EVERYONE I KNOW. Found out today Mercury is in retrograde. It was like "Oh well that would explain a fucking lot." Sometimes I wonder how much "insanity" people dismiss that's actually at least somewhat valid.
I'm really afraid of death. Well not death itself, but of how one might die, if that makes sense. Life is just so unexpected. One moment you can be okay, and the next something happens and you're gone. I'm so paranoid all the time about having a stroke or a heart attack or developing some crazy disease. Of going outside and getting hit by a car or falling down a flight of stairs and that being it. I mean, it really scares the shit out of me. Not even just for myself, but others too. I guess it's the idea of prematurely dying that puts me on edge. It's so bizarre. Like what if I were to die tomorrow? I havent even fucking lived my life. I know it's dramatic and I hate thinking of it, but I have days when it's all I can think about and every minor ache/pain sends me into a frenzy of "omg, is this indicative of some deeper issue? Should I be worried?" etc. Am I crazy or is this reasonable? I don't even know anymore.