I cleared out my table. It's nice to have room to put things on...

When going incognito, you know how there's always a note on how it won't make you invisible online and that whoever set up the network you're in still has access to what you've done? Yeah, I'm worried that my parents are gonna find out about my thousand and one weird-ass kinks. Doesn't help that they're as conservative as can be when it comes to sex.

I only like plain cheese when it's grated

Sometimes I have trouble falling asleep because I'm worried I'll stop breathing. Like I'll forget or something. I try to remember that time my mom told me I can't forget to breathe. My body will do it automatically. But it still worries me. Knowing death is this inevitable thing but we still don't have solid proof what happens next, it freaks me out.

Dreams are so complex and absurd that it's almost hard to believe that they come from our own brain. Wouldn't it be wonderful to have access to this side of our imagination while awake?

Okay, I've posted about this before but my lazy eye is really getting on my nerves these days. Without glasses, I can't focus my eyes without squinting, but sometimes even the glasses don't keep them straight. And when I don't wear glasses - let's say I'm reading in the sauna, for example - my eyes stay crossed for minutes without me noticing, and when I do notice it's because it hurts. I still can't afford a surgery though. By the way, I think there could be a "frustrated" tag on confesster.

why are people willing to spend tens of thousands of dollars to go to college or university, no guarantee of a job. or are willing to spend 1000$ on video games with no advantage at all to your life. sure its fun. but no real value... but when you offer them a program with coaches, material, and all the tools necessary to get totally out of debt, accumulate more income and have better succes in your relationships for 250$ and they tell you thats way too expensive, it's not worth their money or time, say things like 'what if it doesn't work' or 'get away from me with that scam.' people are so flawed in their thinking its unreal

Do you know the feeling when you want to hug someone so badly that your chest aches? Or is it just me?

I'm a huge security seeker. I want nothing more from life than to find a stable job, befriend a few nice people and marry a loving man. I'm just one of THOSE people. I avoid conflict as much as I can, I calculate every last cent I spend just to make sure there's enough money for bad days, I hate the idea of getting drunk because I'm scared of losing any bit of control over myself, and I want to wait until finding true love to have sex. I'm not sure if I'd want to be different from this, but what I'm worried about is that other people will think that I'm lame and boring and that nobody will want to be friends with me. (I do not have any friends yet despite being 20.....) I know, you're not supposed to be worried about what people think. I'm still working on that, I guess.

My cat usually sleeps on the foot of my bed and not on the pillow, but a few days after I changed the sheets she's got the pillow and top part of the blanket covered in fur. She probably slept on it when I was at work. I'm so frustrated because I don't want fur in my mouth when I sleep and now I have lint-rolling to do. I can't blame my cat though - she's never laid on my pillow before so I haven't had the chance to "tell" her that it's off-limits.