its already late but i think im gonna go for a little walk and smoke a joint. hope i dont get robbed or smth that would suck t----t
Its fascinating how a single event can waiver the most sturdy minds and change the course of action in an instant. There was no deep secret that I have a deep regard for you. I just kept it to myself and let be. But recently I feel the deepest need to relinquish this off my chest. I almost died this week. Lost control of my car going down a hill, fishtailed into a full 360. Naturally I wasn't wearing my seat belt and I tried vainly to avoid going over the guardrail. But I knew it was pointless to try to regain control. So I covered my face, closed my eyes and accepted the high odds of dying. But for once in my short time of driving, Jesus took the wheel and I ended up on the side of the road. I was shook pretty bad. The full realization hit a moment after. I nearly died. Gone over a hill into the depths of below with nobody knowing what happened. My brother, only knowing I was going to a birthday party, and my friend who was expecting me at her house after the party. other than that. nobody. Just gone. A lot of people think after a close avoidance of death they have a sudden new appreciation of life. Well I still don't. I feel worse. Now my car is ruined....again....for the third time. I'm financially ruined, my bills are stacked, my rent is overdue, I can't afford to fix my car. It would've been more fucking merciful to just let me end my story there. Man plans, God laughs. I digress. As I thought, I kept thinking back to you. Despite my survival, I still made the promise to fully let you know. I don't care if you don't respond in kind, I accept that. I'm here to lay bare myself so I can finally find the peace to be free. I love you. I truly do. From the first day I met you in 7th grade I had a deep regard for you. I always got giddy in my stomach when you were around and excited when your name was mentioned. I tried to contain myself, mainly because at that age I was still trying to discover myself. But it cracked and showed a bit. when we reached high school, I calmed down and developed better restraint but I still got antsy when we talked. Shy. uncharacteristically bashful. Then when we hung out a year and a half ago, and we actually kissed, my mind continued to restrain my excitement but damn my body betrayed me. After death rescheduled my inevitable appointment, and that sudden fear took over my false sense of bravado, I need to let this out. To you. Whether I want to or not. Friday is the day I have set. I don't want to lose you as a friend, though I am prepared for that outcome. Growth of the new cannot be down without first the destruction of the old. And I will finally be free from this.
I hate being alive, live is shit. It is now during the pandemic and it was before like way before. I'm talking about two decades on not achieving anything at all.
Can't wait to take the vaccine.
my wife is wearing an orange Halloween thong 3 days before Thanksgiving tisk tisk
I'm in a long distance relationship, I've been with my gf for 7 months. she has 3 boys. (7, 10, and 12) but she wants me to reach out and establish a relationship with them. I've made attempts but the kids haven't. (I've played video games with them) I told her "it takes 2 tango" the kids should also have the same curiosity to meet me (someone who is dating thier mom) but she said . ""they don't have to because thier kids. and I'm the adult. I should reach out to them. not them" and she also said "how can they know me? if its over the phone" ....the kids don't know me because I'm not there BUT they also don't want to talk/video chat either.....how is that fair? I'm supposed to do all the reaching out....and if they don't like it.....thats ok??? its so awkward when they pop up on the video chat because all they want is to talk to thier mom not. so I move the camera away and she says I push them away??? how?? they don't make zero effects to get to know me who is wrong??? what's right
dogs are my enemies, eheheheheheeheheh
You know how taste the milk of a jet plane?? It's creamy like ice cream!! OwO!! UwU!!
I really wanna go to a bar, meet a hot guy/girl, make out behind said bar, then go to their place and get fucked multiple times
my father was killed by a werewolf. I was just a little boy. we were in Alabama. now I am a man and a wolf hunter