To my younger self: You should learn yourself and let yourself grow as a person instead of getting into back to back to back relationships to seek the validation and safety your parents don't ever seem to provide. That one guy? You should let him go sooner than you think. He causes you a lot of trauma in the end. If you stay with him though, don't forgive him for cheating on you. It won't be worth it. Next time you want to kill yourself? Do it. The world right now is shitty and the quality of life is low. That combined with your current mental state...it makes you crazy. Better to just make it stop...
Well today I got two fucked up call's from Baltimore,Maryland I called the number back and no one answered the phone so I left a nasty message on their phone. Well today I tried to walk my dog Princess and Coco but Princess pulled out of her harness so I carried her back to the house .Well I also called a bill collector and I told the lady to get out of her clothes and she started laughing at me and hung up . Well I am not going to be on the phone as much today I got a story to finish
Well today my phone was fucked up call free today I didn't have to make no one's life a living hell on the phone, well today I just talked to some friend's of mine . Other than that I called a bill collector today and I told him that I wanted to have sex with his wife and he hung up on me. I watched some of my favorite shows today while I wrote on my story about a woman named Macaela. Well I talked to my friend Brandon he sent me a prank dial joke about Donald Trump I can't stand that sorry ass motherfucker, I do hope that he gets arrested by the Iranian government I would be so fucking happy . Well I hope and pray for our nation thing's are getting out of hand right now especially with these protesters clashing with the police, I know that y'all want to be heard but please go about it in a different way
My hero replied to me on instagram and followed me. she has psychic powers and always guesses the fights correctly, i asked her since all her predictions come true, if she could predict im gonna be happy and have friends, she said i'm gonna have so many friends, i won't even know what to do with them, and followed me. i cried the whole day, and i printed the notification and glued it on my door, i look at it all day, i don't have to worry anymore about being alone ever again, because all her predictions come true. it was the best gift i ever gotten.
the more months i am without leaving my house, the worse my mental health is getting. im scared that the admiration and love i have for a hero of mine is gonna be the only positive thing left for me and im gonna be unhealthily obssesed with her. i don't want to be obssesed about anyone i just want to be a good happy boy, and when i meet my hero in the future i want her to be proud of me , not that she thinks im creepy. im just. i want my life back, and my dreams back, so i can feel good again
It seem like my phone is going to be very quiet today from all the fucked up call's today I am happy to say that I got the upper hand on these people who call me
I don’t like indian men especially those who live in India. They seem so desperate for girls online and it’s disgusting . And God knows how many times I read about rape cases and violence against girls. They still have this primitive thinking that prefers baby boys to baby girls. Their fucking culture makes girls pay for dowry. Girls are sooo degraded. When their men come to my country, I can feel their eyes on me. That’s just creepy. I’m glad i wasn’t born in India, girls are not safe there.
I'm not proud of myself with this. I know it makes a shitty person and nothing justifies it but I'm at a loss. I've been in a really with my fiancee for a year now, engaged six months. Our relationship is strained to say the least. But to put it bluntly, I have no trust in her at all. She is aware of this and we're working on it. But in regards to me personally, I feel so isolated. I dont tell her anything because I dont trust her, she doesnt like it when I talk to my remaining family about our issues. She HATES that I'm bi-sexual. She cant stand that I have severe depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, self-harm problems. I'm trying everyday to be better for myself, her and our daughter but it's a struggle each day and she doesn't understand that. I force myself out of bed each damn day. I digress. It's like this day in and day out. I feel like I'm caging myself. I cant breath. its suffocating. So to find some release: theres a guy I talk to on snapchat who ACTUALLY gets me on these levels. He understands my pains and issues. We talk for hours on end and I think hes fucking adorable. we exchange snaps, talk about or day and so on. we dont do anything lewd or that but I still call him cute and such. I understand that I'm a bad fiancee because I do this. To be fair, she cheated on me TWICE, and still I stayed with her. She took everything I told her in confidence and privacy and she threw it back at me in arguments and used them to hurt me. That doesn't justify my actions, I know. but Sometimes I feel this relationship is killing me slowly. I dont want a future with this guy, but it's nice to have someone to talk too.
Well I had a good walk with my dog Princess tonight I didn't have to deal with no bullshit she met another dog named Lucy . Well Iet her run around in the park to get her energy out ,well after leaving the park we went back home . Well I hope and pray that the Dumb ass in the white house gets some jail time ,I would be so fucking happy that he got sent away
I hope that Trump gets locked up I would be so fucking happy