This app makes me feel better.
I am worthy of love, I am enough, I don't have to feel like crap, my bad moments don't have to be forever moments and even tho life sucks I will not give up because Frick you I'm worth it and you sucking doesn't mean I have sit aside and be kicked around. I am the master of my destiny and I will not be told otherwise. I just want to be happy and live myself and those I care about and if that means hurting people's feelings so be it
I really hope they legalize marijuana in Arizona.
I enjoy writing stories about sibling love
he likes me but I dont like him . how do I tell him I dont
he loves me I just don't know how to love him back
one of my fantasy is to brake into a home with a family still there the home would have two very young girls ..I would make the father have sex with the little girls at gun point. the mother would be tied up and made to watch..
Today was a good day... Mildly sad/tired for half of it BUT I didn't think about him barely at all and I just lived life as me...
After a whole month of not cutting myself i did it again. i hate myself i dont want to live anymore. my boyfriend and friend started to tell me that the way I love is wrong and saying this like people don't show their love like that . I wish I had the courage to tell this to thier face: I'm sorry that I'm nothing like you and I'm afraid to show people love because its always tured against me .I'm sorry I can't be normal like you because you haven't been through what I have, sorry I can't be someone you want sorry I can't be perfect for you
Rose is the best in the world i love her so much it hurts everyday it hurts so frickin much shes the only person who understands me but she dont talk to me and it hurts so much i dont want it to hurt anymore i just wanted her to acknowledge me and see that im a real ninja and that we both want same things in life and i just want to do good and stop having money problems and get paid for my art and have the chance to show im the best at jiu jitsu i learning soooo much kimuras because they're the best, and i knew they were the best because Rose does them, its really easy if u just do things like she does u will win because shes smart as hell :/ not everyone acknowledge that i wish u all knew that shes a frickin genius and after she got slammed she maybe dont seem so smart anymore but she still is i promise shes a genius and i love her... i will prove everyone that she was a genius way ahead of her time by fighting like her and winning on everyone.. she always say to have fun in training and shes so right because shes so smart... im getting a thing so i can do ice baths with my friends also Rose made a prediction for me saying i would have friends, well guess what i just made 2 frickin friends who are my friends sooooo hard they help me when i needed sleep and ask me to hangout at their place and get me in on their drug dealing job they are super my friends and im so happy... im gonna make even more just like she said :p anyway yeah i started writing because i get just really really really really really sad i feel like she like ignores me or doesnt like me or that ive been annoying, i just wanted to get her attention since she doesnt seem to see my dms :/ its not that im crazy im just trying to have her see it, the last one she saw while i sent it she hearted it and it was nice.. i wish shed read them again and i wish she was my friend and i wish my kind of style was her favourite kind of style and i wish the way that i train was her favourite martial arts and the food that i cook be her favourite kind of food and i know we have similar music taste and i wish she talked more about musics every song she recommend i fell in love so hard and she listen to things i listened and im sooooo annoying and picky with music i wont listen to almost anything i dont think its perfect and a vibe for me.. basically im just trying to say i love her and im in pain