I dont why I alwys think something's more than its meant to be
i can't calm down on what is going on around me
It isn't even funny how starved I am for physical contact. Not even sex. I just want someone to cuddle with me and listen to me talk at the end of my day.
My boyfriend recently moved in with me. A few years ago, we were freshly together, he had a heart attack which doctors believed came from the stress (he used to switch between work, partying and helping everyone with everything and didn't have a second of rest for days at that time, he also has underlying health issues from his childhood, hence the attack). He lived a less stressful life since then, all fine. Now that he doesn't live at "Hotel Mama" anymore, things are starting to get stressful for him. We have to drive to stores almost daily, trying to get pieces of furniture and grocery shopping. Things like getting insurances and paying bills. Doing housework, cooking, cleaning. Currently, I do almost all of this because I'm so afraid that if I ask him to help me, it will bring out another attack. Of course as a result, I'm now stressed as hell myself (I have college and a job, too). I am also having health issues from the stress. But I know that I'll probably not be having a heart attack, so I just don't know what's right. Sacrificing my well being for him, which is bad but still better than risking him literally dying. Or asking him for help because the way it is now, it's just unfair. (By the way, I know he would help if I asked. He currently thinks I love doing everything on my own.)
So, my psychiatrist noticed that Im actually bipolar. SSRIs just made it worse. So, she prescribed me pills for bipolar...and i couldnt be more better.
Thanks for listening to my venting. Sometimes it is easier to tell strangers.
i don't know why, i feel empty on my birthday.
I can't stop nervous pooping. My anxiety is so bad today it's giving me diarrhea. My stomach feels awful. I hate this. I shouldn't be this upset.
I was at the doctor's office today (routine check up) and came 1.5 hours before my actual appointment because I had to leave work early. When I asked the nurse if there was a chance of me being slipped in earlier, she told me that appointment times are irrelevant and that the doctor takes people in in the order they appear in the office... I don't know if all doctors do this, but I feel like this is very useful information in case you ever have time to kill before an appointment. Just go there early and hope for the best.
do you think off brand fast charge phone chargers really mess up the charging port I just got a new phone about a month or 2 ago and I really don't want to ruin my phone its expensive like 700 ... I was talking to Samsung and they said it can mess up the charging port ... do you think that's true or they're just lying to make more money ... the charger that came with my phone is only 1.5 meters which is nothing ... you practically have to be sitting by the wall to charge it