My father lost his job in this Corona time, and I fear that he will be depressed. What if he can't support our family? I'm worried for my family.
im one to openly say that I've lost my faith in religion. I used to be devout to my faith. I have my all to god, whe. I was like ten. over the years, I drifted off and became more open to other beliefs. I felt lost and alone in a religion where I'm supposed to feel the opposite. I never felt connected to my congregation, and my connection with jesus slowly broke with it. there was no control in it. my position was if I'm worshipping a god who created me: what value does it serve to live a life to him if he already knows my final destination. if I live my life to reach the pearly gates of heaven, not knowing I'm destined for eternal damnation and the being I'm worshipping knows that, how can I sit easy on that? i grew more agitated thinking that everything i do for him will not matter if he knows the end of it all. In the midst of my growing anger, and anxiety, I found peace in taoism. my parents on the other hand were devout to the core. my mother kept driving me to closer to god which just drove me away further. my father, while devout in his heart, sat me down one night during a thunderstorm and we talked. he accepted my decision to break off and follow my own path. 22 years old, almost eight years since, I still remember our talk and I've followed the taoist path thanks to the encouragement from my father. and I've never been more intoned with a sense of peace and harmony with the world.
I have never been able to express sadness or hurting. Anger is the only emotion that I can let people see.
I love a girl who is engaged and she's like, a celebrity in a way, and there's thousands of people who love her, and i hate feeling this because obviously i won't be with her, but it won't go away i just love her so much. actually she's like my hero and my role model, i learn a lot with her and she give me confidence because she's a bit like me. yeah i think about her a lot and i don't want to anymore. i wish i never seen her
when I worked at Amazon I had sex in the restroom with the girl. now each time time we see each other we feel each other up. she even took a video of her using a dildo in the restroom. then she washed it an out it back on the shelf. eventually we both got fired. so glad I met that 18 year old girl.
(This is a two parter) Three years ago, I had a friend with a troubling past. He had a girlfriend whom they were expecting a child. I met her and we hit it off great. I could tell she wasn't happy with him and how he flaunted her like a trophy and objectified her. But it wasn't my place to judge their relationship. over the months, we texted, hung out and became great friends. I grew to fall in love with her. But I kept my distance because I knew not to interfere in her relationship with (let's call him Eric) Eric. During those months, she texted me about her and Eric and I knew him before her so I always told her give him benefit of the doubt. Dont judge him too harshly on his past choices and hes, in his heart, a good person. I was even witness to the birth of their daughter and named Godfather.I fell in love with her the moment I first held her and promised to always protect her to the best that I could. During her first three months, Eric rarely helped out, hardly showed effort to raising his child. His gf constantly called me to help and I always got wipes, Formula, diapers. rocked her to sleep, changed her, became a better father than her real father. three months after, long story short, Eric gets arrested for raping her sister, something he got in trouble with before. Now hes in prison, wind the clocks today, She and I are engaged, her daughter is two and we have a great life together being built. Eric raped her, treated her like a prize rather a partner, degraded her and made her feel like trash and gave her lasting mental issues. Clearly I was wrong and my opinion of him changed and I think him a bad person that deserves what hes getting. Part 2: Now in the present; Eric is still in prison. his mother is constantly trying to get our daughter (let's call her pebbles) pebbles to have a connection with him. Her mother disagrees and I also disagree. But her mother also feels like it's wrong to keep her away from him. Me, I think he screwed the pooch and lost his chance for this. He wants pebbles to know him. (I will say my daughter. I changed her, raising her. tuck her in at night. she calls me dada. she is as good as mine.) I dont want my daughter to have anything to do with her pedophilic, raping father who didnt give her the time of day when she was born, until she is old enough to understand the severity of his decisions, and make the choice for herself. Am I wrong to deny HIM that choice? even when he gets out of prison, sadly he only has 10 years, he will want to see her and I promised to keep her safe. But is it my place to deny him? He has no custody of her.
TL;DR: how do I know if I'm asexual or really terrified of intimacy, or both? So I know this might be a weird question, and because of this I'm posting it on here lol. I'm a 21 year old girl, and I have never been attracted to anyone. Other than having a crush in third grade, I do remember having feelings for a high school teacher once, but it was very confusing because I kinda wanted him more as a father figure (daddy issues), so I don't know if that was an actual crush... But other than that, I have never thought of someone in a romantic way or was interested in dating. I feel weird about never having been attracted to anyone, and every time it gets brought up, people tell me it's basically not possible that I have never been in love, or don't have an image in my mind as to what my potential partner should be like. Now, if this was the only side to the story, it would be easy to say that it has to do with sexual orientation, but thing is, I'm terrible with interpersonal relationships in general. I only have two friends, and even these friendships are hard for me to keep, not because of lack of desire but rather because of my avoidant personality disorder. But anyways, I don't feel like I'm in need of love. It's just that not having been in love makes me feel like a weirdo. On a bad day, I might wish for a relationship thinking that being comforted, supported and cared for by someone would make things better, but that's pretty much it. So if anyone has similar experiences, I would love to feel less alone. Also I would appreciate some thoughts and advice from you guys. And sorry if my thoughts are all over the place. I've been trying to write this confession for half an hour, and this is the best I can do. Sorry if it's terrible, but I hope it at least makes some sense.
I need help on what to do for a persuasive speech for class. Any suggestions? No topic is off limits. What would you find interesting?
This pandemic is really bad, but on the other hand I got my freedom, I am a nurse, and still lives with my mom, (asian culture), but I don’t want to infect them in anyway so I transferred near my hospital. It is my greatest dream to live alone, well my bestfriend lives on the other unit, but still, I got the chance. It is so good to see, mother nature healing, and suddenly mountains from provinces started to appear from our city. Anyway, stay at home, this is serious. Take care guys. 😘
Quarantine is a time you realize white women have 3 personalities that they cycle trough : drinking wine, painting a wall and yoga.