This year, my Christmas Eve celebration was shaping up to be one of the worst Christmases of my life. My mom was in one of her moods and kept yelling at me for nothing, telling me at one point "I don't even know why you came here." I was so stressed out from everything that kept happening, I started having a panic attack. Then, he showed up. My boyfriend arrived to pick me up and take me back to his house to celebrate with his family. And they made me feel like I belonged. I felt so loved and welcomed, things I didn't feel with my family this year. I stayed the night and had Christmas breakfast with his family. I opened gifts with them- and his mom made sure to get me a few things so I'd feel included. They let me join in on their traditions and various games as if I'd been a member of their family all along. And it felt so damn nice. I am so blessed to have been a part of it. I'm thanking God for my boyfriend and his family, because I am so lucky to have them. They restored the Christmas spirit that my own family drained out of me. I am so grateful for them. I hope I get to keep them around forever.
In beginning of 2019 i start training to compete in fighting, i was never as happy as that, i started feeling confident and having friends and i had something i loved to work everyday, but i forgot that people around you have malevolence and don't want you to do good. 2 weeks before competition, this black-belt guy used the technique drills to sneak in punches behind my head, i got dizzy and the next day i started seeing black dots in my vision and feeling dizzy and blacking out by any movement or disturbance. i could not fight now , and i lost my whole year. now in holidays my whole family comes and i had nothing to show them, no success, just a wasted year and now i'm brain damaged, they all judge me negatively now and as a failure. the guy who hit me, i was dominating him in sparring sessions, so he tried to hurt me during technique drills. i should have killed him in sparring when i had the chance, and retired him. this was all my fault because i didn't listen to my intuition, my subconscious kept telling me everything i needed to do not train with this guy because he was gonna try to hurt me, and i didn't listen, now i lost everything
There's a clothing store in my city that has really pretty clothes, but it's all expensive as hell. Since I was a teen I've wished I could go in and just pick whatever I want, but I never could because I never had that kind of money. I kept walking past that store with a heartache. Today I realized - I currently make enough money to afford going on a shopping trip there. This realization was one of the happiest moments I had this year. Not because of the clothes - but because I can fulfill a dream I've had for years, and that feels good. It showed me that my life doesn't have to be awful. I'm really happy right now.
Karma hits. and it hits back 10x harder.
I've only been using this app for 3 minutes and have come to a conclusion. Every human being has a dark side and this app is proof of that.
I've read so many post on her older guys having sex with young girls. an everyone trash talks him. then you hear a lady having sex with young guy. an people are praising the lady. I don't really get it. I guess a guy being with a girl is worse then a lady being with a boy. it's confusing to me. either way I think that's kinda messed up. for the guys congrats hope you don't get caught. got the ladies same thing. an it depends where they live as well. here in the USA the age of consent is 18 I know Japan is 13 cause I researched. this one country was 12. I can see from USA point it view that's messed up. but other countries it's normal. i don't know it's all confusing to me. I'm not trying to start an argument or anything. it's just so crazy how the world sees things.
I'm study in electrical engineering school My professor and friends think I'm not good in everything. All the thing they do is broken my heart. That's made me locked myself in the room. I don't wanna tell someone what i am studying or smile for me the mirror. And then that is the reason forces me to met a shrink(psychiatrist). I fought with bad feeling for 3 years. Now, I can fight with it. I graduated but I studied 5 years. if I can go back in the past, I should study another university. That's crazy they made my teenage life terrible.
I'm a middle aged man and I haven't achieved anything in life. It's like i'm dead to the world.
My cat is attached my parents, my brother and I. She's my cat and one day my brother moves out, or I move out, or I might give her away to my parents. And it's gonna be so difficult for her. All because if one in the member of our family leaves she gets super depressed. She has separation anxiety.
I'm addicted to lust...I can't control it...