I'm tired of people that know my pronouns and refuses to use them all I hear is she her she her her she she I'm sick and fucking tired of it
I really hate myself, deep down. My mum was aways EXTREMELY jealous of me growing up and that made me stop being me. I stopped doing what makes me happy, i stopped wearing what i wanted and now i hate the senseless, boring person i have become. I feel like i dont belong in my skin. I dont want to be in this skin anymore. I also suffer from physical conditions (as well as mental due to her abuse). I just dont want to be here anymore.
Some people should really be careful about what they say about others. You never know when you will piss off a witch like me and end up with a curse. Because tomorrow, I am going to do everything I can to curse this person and make them regret ever speaking ill of me. I am a very laid back person but lying to people saying I made a racist comment is a slight against my character. I have not nor would I ever make racist comments about someone else. I can handle the comments about being inadequate at my job, but spreading false rumors like this is unforgivable.
Is it normal that I've never had a problem with self harm before but when I'm angry or upset (not sad) I want to cut myself out of frustration? Is it normal that I had a daydream (kinda) of taking my switchblade and stabbing myself deep in the abdomen? Is it normal that sometimes I fantasize about being in the hospital? What does this all mean? It really doesn't feel like depression, and I'm on meds for it anyway. Please help.
i hate myself, i am so ugly.
I hate most of my friends. I had to do chemo yrs ago and they knew that and still treated me like shit despite that. OK I acted like it didn't affected me much but I was scared and angry because of what happened to me.
My mum was very abusive to me growing up, but the worst was when i found out she was a sexual predator . She would manipulate 15 year old boys with alcohol and drugs and they would sleep with her. She did this to at least 3 boys. Yet i still see and continue a relationship with her even though it makes me sick to my stomach knowing what she did. I want to scream it out to the world but its been years since it happened. I still think of about it and the abuse like it was yesterday. But she (and a couple of others) have tried to sweep all these secrets under the rug. It bothers me still, nearly 10 years on.
I loathe you and I can't wait to move far away!
I can't wait to face you. face to face and really show you how much I don't care anymore.
I just want everything to stop.