I need therapy so bad but I am also scared to do things on my own. Its to the point that I think if i had to start fully living dependently, I will would fail miserably and probably be homeless.
love when friends will keep up a conversation and ghost when I ask to hang out,, just tell me no instead of ignoring me
never-trained's shouldn't criticize fighters abilities or techniques. its the cringiest thing ever. shut your never-trained ass up you pretentious clown
I love my sister Vanessa Adeoye but she can be a condescending bitch sometimes
i just ate so much junk food. i feel sick, and i was already sick, and my stomach hurty. i have actual food like vegetables and bacon to make a stew but im so dont want to, im renting a room in a persons house and they make me feel bad if i use the stove
I know I am deeply depressed. I had tried different things to distract myself from suicide which would only work for months then I need to find new distractions to not kill myself. I found hatred to keep me alive and been working for a year & half. Also, I made a promised to someone that I haven't fulfill so it is keeping me alive too. Recently, hatred is almost not enough reason to kill myself. My family and relatives are abusive, manipulative and emotional abuser which also made me depressed. They are so toxic too. I want to kill myself already to end everything. Because of hatred, I said to myself that I will be the one to see them die and buried. But I badly want to kill myself now
I love my boyfriend but recently I am not getting turn on and don't enjoy sexual activities with him. I think it's because he doesn't take care of himself physically. I know it should always be personality over physical look. Still though, it is important to take care of yourself even if it's the least important. -> He would complain being overweight and he always say he needs to go do exercise or start going to gym the next day or week. Before he even starts, he then would say it hurts his body and muscle so he won't do it. ----------> He always use plastic bags for his clean clothes when he needs to bring some. I bought him a bag over a year ago, but never uses it. I asked if he didn't like it, he said he just forgets to use it but likes it. ----------> His clothes are worn out, really old and faded already. He doesn't want to buy new ones and doesn't want me to buy him some new ones. He also wear these daily worn out clothes for parties....
I fucking hate my dad hes an abusive manipulative piece of shit who beat my mom when they were married and tried to kill her but for some retarded reason hes not in jail and whenever we visit him he reeks of weed and is basically a Latino man karen. i hate that I used to want my parents back together just cause I was the only kid in my elementary class with divorced parents. He told me about his abusive childhood and how he was a victim of sexual abuse, which i know is an explanation for how he acts now but its no fucking excuse. whatever i just really dont wanna be around him and him to just fucking die already
I can't fit in nowhere and keep gett iij ng fired from jobs. i I just wanna kill myself.
every boy i talk to they say im ugly. it really never effected me untill there was this boy he was really cute and he seemed diffrent from all the other guys i had crushes on he was funny nice and kind but then i ask him do u want to date he said no i ask him why he said i was ugly then i had a full mental break down i tried to kill myself 3 times and i ended up in a mental hospital i cried myself to sleep for months and looked myself in the mirror everyday i tried to say i was pretty but i couldent i knew i was ugly and i still feel the same i will always be ugly and i will never find love