my friend ever made me listen ti her fav music. But she told me to not wrote the title, i didnt wrote it, but she is really mad at me, there is this 1 time where i am just sitting she pinched me as hard as she could, at that time im really weak (i cried) i didnt have the power to fight back, i thought all if this will went away, but 2 day later she wrote that im her copycat, it is full if that my drawing is copying her (we both can draw) how trash i am, i just stood there... she write it in the whiteboard, i first photo it and send it to the school, my school just said that we need to know eachother more, but srysly? I wanted to trust her as a friend but she really did nit trust me, i dont want to make her my enemy, i just want to mark her as a friend whom hates me and missunderstood all this (the teacher said that), i dont have much time to hate her, its like im hating a stinky trash who will be stinky anymore eventhough it has already been cleand up right?
Once I was with family in the middle of the woods exploring nature. I had a 13 yrs old cousin with me. At one time we were left alone for a few minutes. Then a terrible, dark and evil desire came over me. This is not easy for me to say here. I.... I... thought about raping her. Pin her down to floor and have her in the missionary position forcibly. My face got angry when I thought about it. But I didn't do it, mainly because there were people in shouting range. If I were alone with her with no one around I've would done it. I was with no control over my mind. I'm so afraid that this feeling might come again. I felt like a wolf hunting for meat. There were other situations more but this was the worse. I don't have them anymore due to the fact that I avoid being around teenage girls.
I hate arguing about politics, sports and religion. I don't know why I get mixed up in such discussions and get angry with people by not agreeing with me.
This fucking bitch. I hate her now. She has hated me for so long, that I have been pushed to hating her. I fucking hate this bitch. This punk motherfucker. She talks so much shit and doesn't walk any of it back. This fucking asshole. I find myself drifting from God, as I try to deal with this bitch. I hate her, so how can I love God?
I wish I could make people shit their pants with my mind.
I dislike my sister for no good reason. Four siblings and she's the only one I feel no affection for. I hate how much she complains when she's in a bad mood, how much she talks behind others' backs, her GODDAMN FUCKING OBNOXIOUS LOUD LAUGH, her face, how easily she gets offended or mad and then says she's not really mad and that it was just a joke (while laughing that annoying laugh again), her voice, the fact that she smokes and thus smells disgusting, swears constantly - few things sound more stupid than swearing - hangs out with that girl who is even more annoying than her, etc. etc. I haven't expressed my dislike because I know how irrational I'm being.
I'm on a 4-hour bus ride and I didn't bring any water with me. I figured I wouldn't get thirsty because I rarely do regardless of where I am. But NOW I am thirsty. GDI
Faux leather jackets are fucking useless. You're either cold or sweaty, it's they don't go with any temperature.
I feel very frustrated because I don't have a woman but it's not in a sexual way. Don't get me wrong, I want sex but that's like a bonus. I want / need to connect with a woman in a deep emotional level but I can't. I'm not used to being that close to anyone before. I'm so used to be alone all the time thay anything else is something I've never experienced before, not even close. The thing is I'm crazy when emotions flow rampant with me, I act like a completely uncontrolled asshole in that state. I'm also very immature dispite being in my late 30s. I let many women that were interested in me disappointed. Please help me, I need to be saved from myself and the terrible loniless I feel every day.
If I think you're considering leaving I'm gonna leave first. No matter how I feel.