I met this guy 3 years ago the sec he saw me he fell in love with me according to him but I thought he was just kidding so I considered him just a friend and whenever he flirts or flirted with me I would just flirt back for fun , joke, and play around but nothing intimidating bcs I believe to kiss and have sex only with 1 man my whole life and nor even date. years passed and now this guy he would say he still likes me and he is soo sensitive and moody but he always know how to make it up to people and we have same groups of friends. So this BESTFRIEND of mine whom I met 5 years ago and considered her as a sister and family turn out to be a snake and jealous of me all this time. At first when ever I would like any guy she would give negative comments and then later go and flirts with him but despite all this she was always jealous of how this guy loved me she was jealous of how I was always getting love and attention from boys when I wouldn't even try or ask for it . whereas she would socialize and even be the first one to talk to them. So during summer holidays of this year when I had a small argument with this guy since he is moody and sensitive he doesnt talk for few days and then comes around back so when we had a fight my best friend she made a plan to break us off . (* we weren't dating but I do like him but just bcs I don't wanna have anything intimidating or relationship and only give all my love officially to one guy I didn't accept his feelings .) she made a plan to make us hate each other so she said negative things abt him to me about what he felt about me to her and abt me to him so after she succeeded in her plan she acted as a great friend and was there for him and seduced him and flirted with him and when I found out all this from one of my other friend I couldn't believe my ears and I was heartbroken . So I confronted this guy and his response was he was just being "friendly" bcs she was there for him . I didnt confront my best friend but I did give her signs that i know what she did. I dont have the courage to confront her not bcs I can't but bcs its just soo stupid to me to even talk abt it I feel guilty and disgusted to even mention it so I just let it go it's been 3 months since that. and this guy he started ignoring me after 2 weeks of confrontation and ignored me for 2 and half months and yesterday he texted me saying sorry for the way he behaved and during this time since we all have same groups of friends I hangout only with other people except my bff and this guy . so there was this boy who is bff of this guy . this boy is generally the joker of the team and whenever he would see me zoned out and depressed he would cheer me up and make me laugh and I would always call him son for fun and bro all the time but yet he started liking me now too ... and he is mad at me now bcs this other guy he is talking to me again .he doesnt say it he just starts behaving mean and stop smiling and talk. And intentionally go and hangout with this other guy and sarcastically joke around .
I wish Rose Namajunas was my girlfriend and everyday i feel upset in my chest .and i think this should stop already.
My life had always been awfully quiet. I feel like my life had always been on a constant, never ending straight line. The most interesting thing that really ever happens is when something is going on in somebody else's life. I'm 18 and i don't even have a story of my own. Is this what God wrote off my life to be like? Not to sound depressing or anything but do I even have a purpose in life?? I mean really???? I just HAD to win the sperm race out of a million????? Sad to know that someone else that can actually make a difference in this world or be the next Einstein could be born instead of me.
I just saw a cutie with a nice body. Wish I could befriend her, make her happy and possibly turn out to be special to her in a romantic way. The sex is secondary in importance but I do crave it a lot though. But it would had to be meaningful to both of us.
there's a special place in hell for people who mistreats/abandons their dogs and a special place in heaven for people who saves them.
ever owning a house and being able to buy food and pay house bills seems extremely impossible and i'm 24
I often feel like nobody gives a shit about anything anymore nowadays and I thoroughly hate that
I wonder if I even want to be here anymore.
No one respects me. I'm a fucking loser that's only good in pushing people away
I cover my face during sex and I don't talk dirty or anything. Its moslty because I have low self-esteem and I don't find myself verry attractive. I feel bad for my boyfreind..