I hate fucking Monday's they fucking suck ass
i hate 6 AM. its the worst time of day. i hate it. the stupid fucking sun is rising but just barely, and the sunrise isn't even pretty at this time. plus im either waking up for school or feeling the after affects of an all-nighter so it's automatically terrible.
I still hate few of my high school and college classmates. I want to swear at them.
being the only one stuck at home with my mum is so damaging to my mental health
It's been weighing on my mind every now and then. There was this beautiful girl just down the street from where I live now. I didn't feel anything for her but just thought she was pretty. I learned she was peggo and just quit using heroin when she found out. She had a wonderful child from what I hear. I've never seen her baby up close or talked to her since before she was pregnant. After she gave birth and was able to become mobile again she went onto the local fb page and asked if Anyone had any spare baby supplies. My spouse took action and replied right away. We had twins just before her and since we were in a good spot in our lives we could easily replace everything. Her S.O. was still using and sold everything she had got before the baby came. I wanted us to be able to bring her shopping for everything her baby needed but with her SO it was bound to get sold off again. Coming back from work I would see her walking with her child with the things we had given her, it made me happy we could do something but felt that we could have done more. It was only half a year later I received notice of her passing from OD. Her boyfriend egged her on and she started using again, unfortunately it was her last. I was sadden to hear it so. All I could think about was the baby, I hope the child will have a better life but wish that it could have spent more time with the mother. A week after her service, I had seen everything we had given her at the end of her driveway by the side of the street. I try not to think about it too much but it still weighs heavy in my heart. I hope she's in a better place and her child is doing well.
I can be quite cruel to those around me without noticing I am doing it
my mum's mindset is literally so disgusting, she's the type of person that blames the victim for "baiting" the men for what they wear. So what if the girl decided to wear booty shorts or bralettes??? they should wear whatever the fuck they want (vice versa) and not be afraid cause some asses cant keep their horniness and dicks intact .
I'm so angry I can't sleep. Nothing did even happen. Just the thought of people making making fun of my fiancee (I doubt that this even happens) makes me so damn angry that I wish I could kill everyone who ever wronged her. But why do I even wonder, lately I have a lot of anger issues and I'm not taking the meds my psychiatrist perscribed to me, because finals are incoming and I can't allow myself to have my mental capacities mellowed by psychotropic drugs. Guess all is bound to go to waste again.
I'm so right now mad because my cap and gown didnt arrive! They literally scammed my mom for her money! So, the school suggested where and what website we should buy our cap and gown for the 2020 graduation. According to them, it was legit. But the company seemed more like a scam. We spend thousands of dollars to buy that shitty graduation uniform, and this so called "legit school uniform website" scammed us! I am never trusting the school district again!! They can shove their lies up their ass!! I just cant believe a company that works for the school would do such a thing... and now I'm coming up to stage without my cap and gown, just my regular clothes. How embarrassing!!!😡 Such anger!! I can't control it!!
My dad is ALWAYS criticizing any action or behaviour or anything he sees. he acts like that is being helpful but really its just his insecurity and toxicity manifesting,but he doesn't have enough self awareness to understand. it has always been like this since i was born, so i grew up with very little self esteem, being corrected every minor detail in everything i attempt in life. i hate him for it and once i can afford to provide myself my intentions is to never interact with him again, especially not gonna let him near my kids