I hate not being able to control the impulsive thoughts that flash through my mind. I don't want those thoughts there, why are they there?
I'm a Catholic and my boyfriend is an atheist but spiritual. Well i grew up in a non-homophobic, open minded family. I was not raised bigoted and my parents taught me religion really well. That Christ teaches "agape" meaning unconditional love. To love everyone regardless of what they are and who they are. But my belief in my religion is different from my mom. I dont like going to church every sunday, i dont pray the rosary, but i follow the doctrines somehow. I like my relationship with god to be a quiet one. I dont share it to anyone. I dont convert my boyfriend to be one. Well he sees christians as bigoted, imbeciles who believes in false deities. And most often he makes fun of them. I dont really say much because I mean he's not a christian, I cant really blame him. That's what he sees. But it hurts that sometimes the things I hear sounded so hallow. And from what I have seen atheist are not that different from people who believes in god whom at the same time bigoted. The thing is, people are bad... not the religion and it doesnt matter whether you believe in god or not, you're wrong or right whether youre holding the bible or a texhbook of 7th edition Organic Chemistry. If you're religious and sees gay people as sinful outside of your religious culture, then you're closed minded. But if you're an atheist and sees religious people as imbeciles outside of your atheistic culture, you're shallow. Because those who sees wrong with each other, both of you are wrong because all you do is to dehumanize each other.
he's a good father, just a terrible husband
I contracted some stupid virus, as I usually do around this time of year. I'm so over it, I'm tired of feeling like shit and looking pathetic. I just want it to go away.
Every time I see you I'm reminded of my failure with you, how I've stopped talking to you for no reason except my inability of having in my life as a friend. You're the most beautiful woman I ever met and I couldn't help myself to blew it.
Why am I in a constant bad mood?
I've been cutting myself for 12 weeks. My parents don't know and the one person who does know I lied to saying I've been clean.
Is there anyone that can speak malay language here? from malaysia and students. I need help.
I get really mad everytime I talk to my mom. Everytime I share something, she's always argumentative and always counterinterracts everything I say. Like "I realized this and that.." or "My friend shared me this.. and it makes me think". And she would always reply "No maybe this maybe that and I dont think and not that." Like I don't ask for an opinion or an arguement, I ask for a person listening. I just ask for "I see" or "ahh" or "okay". Like every damn time I talk to her. Even for a litle thing I ask for. I tried to confront her about it and she denies and says "I'm not this and I'm not that and she gives no reason why." And she's never willing to listen. She always says she's busy. But she puts time on nonsense things. And she's the type of person who would say "you should be this" or "you should do that" it makes me mad. It's like she always say the things what I should do not how I should do it.
I'm so pissed at my husband. I am on a journey to lose weight and get healthy. I go to the gym 5 days a week and do 45 minutes on the treadmill. I'm over 300, but working on losing it. Today my husband made a crass comment saying, "I'll know when you've lost the weight when you can wrap your legs around me when we fuck.". I've already lost over 30 pounds and hubby himself is over 300, so he had no room to talk. I just about snapped. At least I'm going to the gym and working out. He just had me fixing him chocolate milk every night and it always looking for something sweet to eat every night. He's being such a douche.