Honestly, I'm sooo fed off of my dad criticizing everything I do. I do everything for him to make him proud why is it always that he put me down??? I get good grades, he said it's not enough. I study hard and earn honors, it's not enough. I won, the surf competition, it's not enough. I wanted to become an IT person, I should've stayed in pre-med. I wanted to learn to cook and learn a new language, my food sucks, my work sucks everything sucks! I graudated high school, I got an honors, two medals, and a recognition, it's not enough. When the fuck is enough? Can having me as a daughter be already enough? He always say daughters are a pain in the ass? When was I ever a pain? When did I ever disppoint him in life? It's always my brother!!! The man not woman...He's amazed at my brother. He had one goal in life, to study and become a lawyer. He graduated with a valedictorian with.. I know many awards than me. He got full ride scholarship in damn Yale and apperently saved more with spare college money. Me? Yeah what about me? I pay only half and the other scholarship. Yeah wht is MIT anyway to him? It's not ivy league BUT I love it here! When did he even say he love me!?!?!?! Or proud of what I do? MY mom says he shares his love through giving. Yeah he gives me material things to make me shut up as a kid once. Even as a kid I never even felt loved by him. He doesn't care if I grew up with a no discipline or have an attitude. And I could've wished my father showed me more love through affection and told me things how to be a kid and a happy one. He's only scared if I vanish because my mom will get extremely worried. And my dad only care about my mom. Sometimes it makes me think my dad never wanted us, he never wanted a daughter more, he just wanted my mom. And they've been married for soooo long, I can feel my dad endured all the sacrifces for my mom. Because my mom always wanted a kid especially a daughter. I can tell he's a very good husband but he's a terrible father. If he ever love me he could've showed it long time ago. But I'm already 22...
I wish the universe would just give me a fucking break. Talk about getting kicked while I'm down. I just keep getting hit with new waves of bad luck almost daily. When will this end?
I don't like it when people play jokes on me is this a confession?
why do I get so angry all the time..
once my mum starts complaining she never stops
All my friends started turning their backs on me because I simply didn't agree with them, and because I opened myself up to them about being weak. People whom I've trusted for decades over are leaving me in mere moments. I hate myself, and I hate that I am unable to simply walk away from this without any negative feelings.
My friend is the other woman. She’s a slut, I don’t normally use that word, for example not for women who sleep around without hurting anyone but I think what she’s doing is so harmful and repulsive that the word applies. God, I never thought she’d turn out like this and how can I trust her knowing what she’s doing and how she’s lying? She’s friends with the man’s girlfriend, I just can’t believe her.
Is this a coffin? Am I digging my own grave? I am aware now. Do I still have a chance to leave?
I've never liked Chris Pratt. For some reason he seems really douchebaggy to me. I don't know why.
I hate it when people say it's FREE when it's really not like 'free car' only if you lease but it's still not the same an 'free candles with purchase' , an like 'free mower' with motor purchase require. Also 'free lipgloss' when you purchase 3 foundations. I think it's all ridiculous and misleading.