Today is one of those days when everything and everyone annoys me irrationally.
When I learn stuff about history, I'm way too easily angered by some historical people even though they're already dead. I think about how I want to go back in time to torture king John of England and shit...
i come from a country that worships the ground that white people walk on; if a white person walk pass or is anywhere within a radius of 120 miles, people would lose their fucking shit as if white people are all hollywood celebrities. It gotten so bad to the point where if you're white, your ass is kissed to the core and it became the norm where the LOCALS would ask to take pictures with the TOURISTS (white specifically), its actually really embarrassing i dont know why they do that. i dont want to talk shit about my own country but its just something i've noticed and im speaking nothing but the truth unfortunately, white fetish is a real thing. (dont mind the shitty english or grammar its not my first language)
i am addicted to sex. the feeling i get from having my pussy pounded by a hard cock is so amazing all i think about is fucking
I dont why I alwys think something's more than its meant to be
I can't stop nervous pooping. My anxiety is so bad today it's giving me diarrhea. My stomach feels awful. I hate this. I shouldn't be this upset.
do you think off brand fast charge phone chargers really mess up the charging port I just got a new phone about a month or 2 ago and I really don't want to ruin my phone its expensive like 700 ... I was talking to Samsung and they said it can mess up the charging port ... do you think that's true or they're just lying to make more money ... the charger that came with my phone is only 1.5 meters which is nothing ... you practically have to be sitting by the wall to charge it
🎶Words are very unnecessary, they can only do harm.....🎶
My first sex experienced was when I was 14 years old . FIRST my friend's brother who's probably (26 at that time, he kind of forced me to do it ) and my friend (17) and lastly my ex-bf (17) All of them at 14. After thinking about what happened years ago . I feel like a trash tbh. I haven't had sex after then. And here I am trying my best fix my life atm.
This happened almost 3 years ago. PS: I'm not a good storyteller and my English sucks. Sorry in advance. Elli ( not he's real name) okay so I used to call him KUYA (big brother) he's not a friend mine because obviously I was way younger than him, I was like 15 at that time and he was like 26/25 year's old. We weren't closed but we kinda talked to each other sometimes. Btw he's my friend's older brother that's why we're kind of talking . So around May, there's a festival in town so everyones busy and excited about it coz local artists and bands are going to perform there. Meanwhile at that time I was looking for someone to go with coz my friend's didn't invite me at all...And thankfully I have someone I know who can go with me, but apparently he isn't alone he's with his friends. Male friends. I didn't know until i've seen them nearing Elli's house ( I was waiting for him at Elli's house btw) and Elli asked me if I'm going to the festival. I said yes. And he asked for my number just in case my so-called acquaintance for the night will ditched me after the festival ( because I need a ride home u know). And yes obviously he's gonna be there too with his batchmates in highschool. And yes they ditched me😭 thankfully my I Elli called me I told him what happened. So he looked for me because there's a lot of people, worst is that it's raining really hard and I'm wet and my phone died (WTF MOMENTS) thankfully he found me. All his friends are grown ups . They're looking at me like I was lost. Thankfully they resumed drinking and I was sitting beside Elli. I was cold. He noticed that. And then suddenly he hugged me. I was dumbfounded , I didn't know what to do. And (WTF moments happened again) he pulled me closer to sit on his lap. Can you imagine my face while he's doing it. I can't even. And then his friends asked me If I can drink beer ( I shamelessly noddey head.) I can feel my face heated while he's whispering in my ear. " Are u cold?' I just nodded. The rain didn't stop at all but I can almost hear my own heartbeat. I am no innocent, I've watch adult vedios before and my friends haved told me information about IT. I was drinking the beer when he cupped my breasts while his face is my neck. I can feel his breathing. I stared at him looking horrified of his actions. BUT I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING TO STOP HIM . Part of me is horrified but i'm more confused. I never thought of him like this. His mom is very much proud of him because of his work. But little did she know that her son is double faced. Before this all happened I remember him being casual to me, almost cold. Like a big brother. And now? WTF . Before I could react one of his friends asked him if he's gonna go home already since his other friends didn't bring his car. He nodded and let go of me. I felt relived. Just then he grabbed my hand and he told that we're going home. I just nodded. While in the car he keep glancing at me. It made me self conscious for a moment. We dropped off his friends. And BOOOMMM we're alone. I was very nervous at that time. While he's driving I asked him I if could borrow his power bank (My brain finally working) since my phone died (to text my brother to come and pick me up, because I didn't feel safe around him at all.) He suddenly parked and stopped the engine and looked at me. And then he kissed me. And the stupid fucking me kissed him back. ( at that very moment I knew somethings gonna happen between us. That's for sure) He kissed me again and again and then he touched my boobs . I didn't know how to respond. Lots of thoughts are going to my mind. What if he'll kill me if I won't kissed him back, what ifs... And then he stopped. He fucking smiled. Without saying a word.He start the car engine and and start driving again. He stopped and park his car. He proceed to grab my hand. I was very nervous. And then finally asked him what are we doing outside a motel. He then told me we're staying there for tonight because he's too tired to drive and I'm totally wet from the rain. I told him that it's okay i'm fine and I just need to go home before my parents get worried of me. He then to told me that he'll explain everything to my parents when we gets home tomorrow morning. I nodded in defeat. We checked in, and he paid for paid for only one room. I was about pay for mine when he told that he there's two beds. I decided not to complain because im too cold to argue with him (the AC's on blast ). Just when I thought things are gonna get fine since there's a two bed , turns out it's only one. He lied ( Is he gonna rape me here. FML) I was very confused when he suddenly stripped in front of me. ( It's my first time seeing a naked man in real life AND I AM NOT READY ) he casually put his clothes to the bed and proceed to the shower. I was sitting in bed . when he comes out of the shower ( with a towel around his body this time THANK GOD)and he told me to take a shower too. without saying a word I proceeded to take a shower and I just realized then that I don't have any clothes ( they're all wet.) I just took the the other towel put it around me and wash my wet clothes and hanged it after. After that I comes out of the shower just to meet his gazed, his lying in bed with a towel around his waist. He suddenly gets up and then walked and then he's in front of me.He stared at me for a moment and I stared back awkwardly. He slowly started kissing me and I kissed back ( I planned to give him bj to satisfy the mad man ) He took of the the towel in his waist and them mine. I was embarrassed. I couldn't even look at him in the eye. He lays me in bed but still kissing me.I was nervous. I'm a virgin. What if I'll get pregnant ? I told him that and his response " Don't worry dili lagi ka ma buros." and then he started kissing me gain and he's starting to touch my everywhere he groped my boobs and I started to whimpered. He and then he touched me THERE! I stopped kissing him tried pushing him. But he pulled me easily that his "thing " is in front of me. It's my first time seeing something it in person o don't know what to feel . I decided to stick with my plan and start giving him a bj (YUCK ) it's didn't taste nice at all but I continued and then he fixed my hair and hold it . He told me to look at him while doing it. But I didn't. He demanded again and then started saying F words (I'm choking and he seems to enjoy it, MAD MAN) Something white comes out (EWWW) I almost vommit. I pulled it out of my mouth laid beside him thankful that it's done. ( Well everyone, he isn't done at all) he suddenly got up and started kissing me again his hands, everywhere and then I keep on telling him I can't do it yet.BUT he's stonger than I am. I just laid there while watching him doing something to me. I was too tired . I can't fight back. I'm no longer a virgin. After that he confessed to me that he likes me. (WTF MOMENTS AGAIN) In the morning he acted like nothing happened. Back to his big brother awra again. SORRY FOR THE GRAMMATICAL ERRORS AGAIN. THIS IS TRUE STORY. I HAVEN'T TOLD ANYONE ABOUT, NOT EVEN MY SISTER. I DECIDED TO SHARE IT. Feel free to ask me questions. I am more than willing to respond. THANK YOU