People who leave a mess in the bathroom at work for no reason get on my nerves. I know you know you left your used paper towels in the sink. And why? Why? There are two trash cans behind you and another one next to the door. I don't know how it wouldn't take a conscious decision to leave the paper towels in the sink instead of tossing them in the trash on your way out. Same thing for people leaving food wrappers and other trash on the counters and tables instead of using one of three trash cans in the room. There's at least one trash can on each side of the room. People are just lazy.
People who are more ugly than me can get laid and people who are even weirder can get laid too. I guess I'll just get drunk...
My husband is really bad at buying me gifts. Just had my birthday and like always he's brought me clothes that are way too big and tacky perfume that smells way too fruity and sickly. He always does this every year. I'm not complaining about cost, it's about how little they suit me. When it's his birthday if I buy him clothes I always check his own ones in his wardrobe so I get the right fit and with cologne I remember what I already know he likes the smell of to get something in that ballpark. He never makes that same effort with me. I've not said anything to him because I don't want to hurt his feelings but I fed up with unthoughtful gifts - tacky smelling perfume that hurts my nose and ill fitting clothes eurgh. Last year I literally found out that he brought most of my presents the night before - it makes me angry and sad to think of how little effort he puts in.
that other app is a joke and the owner is a bigger joke it should be closed down for cyberbullying
soo...I've been going through alot lately and I always knew I had a possession issue but not to the point where it's out of control but today I said something and had to take a look at myself. am I crazy? I honestly believe I am maybe hormonal imbalance? sigh
My birthday is next week and I'm dreading it, mostly because my two younger sisters won't be getting in touch. We fell out almost two years ago, at that time I was going through a really horrible period of my life and was incredibly depressed/ having suicidal thoughts. For context about two months before we fell out my long time partner dumped me over the phone, I was made redundant and had to move back home and sleep on my parents coach. They didn't bother to ask how I was doing, didn't want to hang out with me and they kept falling out with me over petty shit. I told them that I was going through a hard time, but they didn't seem to be too bothered. One night I saw that one of them had sent our other sister a bitchy message about me taking too long on the shared laptop and it ended up going into an arguement. Since then, for almost two years we haven't talked and shortly after I moved out. I've messaged them multiple times, inc one time last summer to ask if we could talk about it face to face. They replied that before they would even meet me, they would need me to accept guilt for all types of petty stuff, some of it from years and years ago and some of the stuff they were annoyed at me for didn't even involve them. I found it pretty harsh and one sided but was scared of blowing my chance so I just reiterated if we could meet face to face and chat but it fell through anyway. They're teens 17, and 19 now so I didn't know if that influences their side too much. I would love to make up with them I adore both and it tears me apart, I just don't know if it will work. There's been times when I've visited my family and both staunchly ignore me, the younger one used to make snide passive agressive remarks from time to time. It hurts me badly and I don't know if it can be fixed. I hate the fact that I've been the only one reaching out from time to time - makes me think I'm the only one who wants to make up. It's a terrible situation and I think about it all the time.
Sometimes being demisexual is really lame. I can't have "casual" relationships because of it. I can't have fun hookups with no commitment, because I have to be emotionally connected to someone to feel sexually attracted to them. I literally cannot feel sexual attraction to a total stranger. But sometimes I wish I could just get laid without having to worry about dating or falling in love.
I wish I told you I loved you more before you died..
I thought I had deleted everything about my ex from my Facebook. But I went through my "on this day" and found at least two more posts about him. One day I'll finally have no more traces of him on my Facebook. I may keep his sister as a "friend". I might keep the important pictures, like prom and graduation. But anything else can go to hell.
I've been re-reading my confessions and I will say I've gotten more mature about pornography but I honestly feel like I was a better person back then. I didn't automatically assume the worst in people but growing up makes you realize you can't trust someone by the face they show you.