Due to the workings of the german system of education, some of my subjects are far more important to my finals than others, called Leistungskurse (LK) or "Performance-Courses", those LKs are put at the very end of a 10-hour schoolday. I don't even know where to start with why this sucks ass, but wouldn't it make more sense to put the most important kind of class at the beginning of the day, instead of the end? The teachers don't like it, I don't like it and anyone else is equally disgruntled by it. To qoute Lovecraft, albeit jokingly: "When I think of the extent of (...) that (...) I almost wish to kill myself forthwith."
I noticed that I've turned into one of those girls who hate other girls who look good. As you can probably guess, I'm super insecure about my own looks, but I always just was sad about it sometimes and could ignore it most of the time, which was fine. But now, whenever I see a pretty girl (which happens a lot) I get this massive wave of hatred suffocating me. I also am really bitchy to some friends/acquaintances sometimes just for this reason, and I hate myself for that. I don't even know where this hate is suddenly coming from.
People cause my disability!!!!!!!!! Its other people!!!!
When some dumbass decides to shoot a place up, they almost always kill themselves afterwards... and I love that. I'm so glad those pathetic pieces of scum remove themselves from the planet and save everyone the trouble and money of going to trial to sentence them for their crimes. I wish people would stop mass shootings in the first place, I hate that it happens, but if it's gonna happen, I want those sons of bitches dead. I want them remembered as what they are: worthless cowards.
Why do people decide to become actual stalkers? Like cyber or in real life? Why can't they decide against it? I mean I know at a point in our lives we all become weaker...but if you are aware of this and the pain you cause....stop.
I fucking hate my mom's ringtone. It's one of the standard ones, but it's exceptionally annoying.
I hate people who can't understand that no is no. "Oo you're just playing hard to get" just fuck off!
Me doctor is an hour late for our phone appointment. Piece of shit!
Idk but i feel sooo much better compared to earlier today after my confession of never touching my son inappropriately even though the family I'm from, is a bunch of lying perverse psychopaths. I feel sad that he turned into a kind of monster despite....raping me b4 and men raped him when he was super young. He didn't tell me until waaa.ay after it happened. 😮😖. One one a fake brother. So many lies.....
EXPLICIT I just want my libido to die. I've rubbed myself numb, it doesn't even feel good anymore. It hurts and there's only pleasure for a second when I cum but I can't stop.