You know what mommy I forgive you I'm done resenting you...
All my mom asked for for Mother's Day was for us to clean up the house. I don't know why my lazy ass brother refuses to help. He's 14 years old, he fucking knows better. Just pissing me off and stressing me out. I hate that he's like this.
I really hate advertising on Mother's Day. I'm glad it'll be over after today. It's tough being bombarded with everything about moms when yours isn't here anymore. I was driving to work yesterday and heard an ad on the radio saying something like "Gifts for your mom are great, but you know what she really wants? Time with -". I was worried it would say my mom wants time with me, so I turned it off. Well, no shit. I want time with my mom too. I'd give anything to spend more time with her. I'd cut off my own foot just to hug her again and hear her voice. Unless you can go back in time and save my mom's life, shut it. I wish there was a way to ignore all mother's day stuff while still going online and listening to the radio like normal.
I think the government is paying cellphone companies to make their phones as addictive as possible to keep the populace obedient and unquestioning.
My mom went to have surgery...This is definately messed up but i kind of hoped that she'd die.....
Some days I wish I could stop biting my tongue and just let loose with every fucking thing that crosses my mind, unleash the emotions I'm really feeling instead of hiding behind a blank mask. I wish I could tell them how much I hate the way they act and the things they do and how I'm so fucking sick of being around people who don't give a shit about anyone or anything but themselves. Then I remember I'd have to see them again the next day, and the next day, and the next, until I leave this job or until they all do, and it would only make my life hell to say all of this. So I keep my mouth shut and focus on getting my job done.
my boyfriend is a fucking asshole!!! ugh. I can't fucking stand humans sometimes.
I hate people. Not every individual person, of course, but I hate humanity as a whole. People just suck.
I hate drug addicts. Pot, crack, meth, heroin, prescription pills, even alcohol. How big of a fucking asshole do you have to be to sit there and think even trying these things is okay? Or in the case of alcohol, how do you let yourself drink so much that you become dependent on it? Yeah, it's hard to quit an addiction. But it's so fucking easy to just never develop one in the first place.
My gf and me went off on a skiing trip with one of her school friends and this friend's mates also. I didn't know anyone except for my girlfriend. Anyway this girl, my gf's friend (and the organiser of the trip) was really weird. Even from the very first night she was weirdly passive aggressive I noticed and when we went to bed that first night without me even saying it to my gf so said to me first that she noticed that she was being pretty weird towards us. The next five days that followed we noticed that she would still be passive aggressive to us and making things really awkward and her other friends would start to act awkward too but no one would mention it out loud. In the end things got so bad and uncomfortable my gf asked if we could leave the trip early to which I gladly said yes. Then after we'd left this girl starts ringing up my gf being overly nice asking why we left early, pretending that she didn't know why, my gf let it slide and didn't call her out on her behaviour. In the next few weeks she was messaging my gf on and off to go hang out with her and the other girls - being really nice, acting like nothing had happened. This girl was an absolute nightmare and ruined a whole trip which took us ages to get to, because her behaviour was so awful it got to the point where my gf was saying that she didn't even want to be her friend now it looks like she's going to let her off the hook after acting like a brat for nearly a week and it pisses me off, I feel betrayed. This girl by the way didn't even really make an effort to make me feel comfortable even though she was the one who organised the trip - she barely made an effort to talk to me, literally apart from the first night where she asked me a few generic questions it was me who had to make the effort to even have small talk. I want to say something but I don't even know if it's my place too because it's their friendship, feels bad because she probably end up getting away with her bad behaviour.