I told him that I would hate to think I would never see him again etc. I lied. I think I just wanted to check in and see if he ever cared at all or had any remorse for what he has done etc. He's a rapist sociopath....I was wrong with thinking I mattered. He just showed up wanting me to suck his dick. Wtf Wow dude. Like wow.
I hate it when my parents armchair-psychoanalyze other people. Sometimes even people they don't know! You might have university degrees but you didn't study fucking psychology. Don't act like you know everything!
Earlier today, I posted on here about how my sister and I have never gotten along and I knew she'd stop talking to me once she didn't need anything anymore. She crossed a line tonight and I will never forgive her for it. She asked me last minute if I'd babysit for her from 10:30 am - 9:00 pm. I love my nephew, but babysitting for almost 14 hours and only getting $5 in gas money is a bit much. She doesn't send him to my house with food or any toys. My budget is tight already, I can't afford to suddenly add on another mouth to feed plus drive an extra 30 minutes to drive her around. Last week, I barely ate and lost a noticeable amount of weight because I had to use my grocery money on gas. I budget $40 per paycheck for gas, that's exactly enough to get me to and from work for two weeks. I ended up spending about $60. So I asked my boyfriend if he'd be up for helping me babysit. Again, 14 hour day with a bored 5 year old who doesn't have any toys is exhausting. He said no, we already had plans for the day and we've babysat whenever possible for two weeks. So I said no. She got pissed and said "shocking". I don't like saying no, but I have a right to. On the car ride home, she just started ranting at me, cussing me, saying the family is sick of my shit because I don't call. She said our (dead) mother would be disappointed in the cunt I've turned into. That crosses the line for me. I will never forget that or forgive her for it. For five years, the one thing I've wondered is would my mom be proud of me? And then my own sister throws that in my face. If my nephew wasn't in the car, I wouldve stopped and made her walk home. She said if they're such a burden I won't get to see my nephew again and lose their number. After the comment about our mom, I don't give a damn about her. But I love my nephew. I want to see him grow up. I want him to know how much I love him. And his last memory of me is going to be me and his mom screaming and cussing at each other. He won't remember me will he? I don't remember much from when I was 5. If his mom never talks about me except to talk trash, and never let's me see him, he's gonna forget me. I'm scared his mom won't tell him I love him. He'll just forget me, or think I don't care. I've spent the last two hours crying on and off, but I doubt she's cried at all. She's probably just gonna tell someone how much of a bitch I am. My sister is dead to me. I'm done hoping we'll have some kind of normal or healthy relationship. Anyone who could be that hateful and cruel over not babysitting is not someone I want in my life. If she needs me in the future, I'll tell her to fuck off. Unless someone's dead, in the hospital, or my nephew needs me, she can fuck off.
expectation hurts, don't expect too much :(
I'm away from a month and when I come back, I find four trashbags surrounded by countless fruit flies in the kitchen. What. The. FUCK, SIS!?
Fuck that faggot. Or at least he sounded like one. Sensitive, emotional bitchass nigga. Weak ounk muthafuqa. Sucka ass fag. Smh
This is not what I wanted to hear... This is exactly what I feared to hear.
Trying to use a restroom in public. In almost the last stall, alone. Two girls walk in and use the stalls on either side of me. Why? Why??? Literally every other stall is open, and I know the one to the left of me is dirty, cause I almost went in that one. Wtf my dudes I'm just trying to poop in peace
So I met this girl in the middle of last semester and I kind of knew that she was into me at the time, the thing was that I thought I would never see her again because we are studying completely different courses. But ever since I met her, I saw her a lot of times and the thing is that she was really cool and I want to talk to her again but every time I see her I am with my friends and it is not option to ditch my friends just to talk to her and I know she still remembers me because holds a gaze and smiles at me every time she sees me, I just wish I can have another opportunity to talk to her again
I miss toxic people. sighs. I hate feeling lonely.