Im really sad right now :/ I cabt find a job.. i cry everyday..i feel shit most of the time. I lie to my family everyday when they ask if im ok.. i smile all the time so people thinks that im really ok :/ i dont want them to know that im dying inside :( i was at the doc.. they told me i dont have depression and that im just pissed of. He gave me medicine to precent that i do bevome a depressive person.. i have to take ghat for 20 days.. im so shitty that i lie to myself that im ok and do not take the medicine :/.. i dont even know why im afraid to take this shit medicine.. im fucking confused.. somedays i try to sleep just to have the feeling that i dont have to think anymore.. fuck -.- i dont know.. sometimes i think im gonna explode :/ sorry for poor english.. its not my mother tongue
i'm lonely. and i had a way out, and was close to the light trough my hobby, but i injured myself and lost it. now back to loneliness until i recover. i thought i couldn't take it anymore, but now i have no option but to wait
Bwisit ka Kathrina!!!
Well, turns out my mum has cancer. After 3 cancer deaths in the last 3 years, I'm kind of getting tired of this shit.
Today I found out that one of my favorite teachers has been arrested and charged with statutory rape. I don't know how to react. This seems so out of left field for her. I just... I mean, this is really hard for me to process. I have always looked up to her and admired her, and to find out that she could be capable of something like this... This is shortly after finding out that my dad, who I used to look up to, is also not at all worthy of being a role model. It feels like everyone I considered to be the best people in my life is actually a piece of shit somehow. It's... not a great feeling. And as if all that isn't bad enough... I was super close with this teacher. Like "friends on Facebook, still talked for several years after I graduated, consider her a real friend" close. And she was my first gay crush. At a time when I still thought being gay was an atrocious sin, I was attracted to her somehow. She helped me realize I was bi (though she has no clue of that). Idk what I even want to say here. I just need to talk. I'm so bothered by this. When I first found out, I dissociated for over an hour. I'm crushed by this. I just hope the accusations are false and that she's innocent.
I don't think that I'm depressed I'm just sad
Watch out for trolls! They eat shit, and spew it under your comment, to give you negative advice.
i feel pathetic when i self-harm... i do it when my parents/freinds/loved ones are angry with me and sometimes their words push me to my limits...so all that hate i feel becomes bigger when i hurt myself like no one loves me already...am i so invaluable to not even love myself?
I think it's funny how the political-correctness-movement tries to censor every opinion they don't like by labeling their critics with words such as "toxic" and then call other people fascists. When you're so liberal, that you are not liberal at all.
Guys if I end up dead...WALTER did it.....