I've never been a conspiracy theorist of any kind, but I am very skeptical of psychiatrists. I'm convinced they prescribe people pills they don't need just to get them addicted and make money. I saw it happen to my dad. They tried to do it with my mom. My best friend is now taking Adderall for a mental disorder she never even considered she might have until her "therapist" told her she needed it. And her memory/attention span has honestly gotten worse with that fucking medication. If she misses even one dose now, she can barely function because her short term memory is shot. And people wonder why I don't want to seek help for my anxiety/depression. My best friend swore she just wanted therapy and wasn't interested in pills until that shrink convinced her otherwise. They don't want to help. They just want us to pop pills and quietly fade into silence. The whole "they don't force you to take meds" thing is a lie. They pester you and badger you to "just try it" until you finally give in. And I'm not subjecting myself to that.
This is such a basic edgy desire, but i wish to be the only person on this planet. Noone to bother me, no one to judge me, no one i have to do things for. just me, a fire too cook stuff, and maybe some animals that are just there for the sake of it. I dislike every single person, and i really mean that. It hurts me in a way, and its a cycle of fucked up emotions fueling my rage against myself and others to the point where its no longer normal, even dangerous. I do have myself under control, but its not a life worth living.
I fucked up at my job, man. These stupid insecure motherfuckers gonna be the death of me. Smh.
I'm not responding to that bitch. Its not fucking worth it.
Someone sat at my desk yesterday and took down all my papers from the sides of my cubicle. Not personal stuff, but work related stuff that has to be there. We use that stuff every day and it's impossible to memorize all of it, so it stays there. All of those papers are at every single desk in pretty much the same spot. Whoever sat there yesterday put all those important papers mixed in with a pile of my stuff and some stuff from people don't work here anymore. I didn't have time to sort it out before I clocked in, but I'm putting all of it back when I go on lunch.
You know what mommy I forgive you I'm done resenting you...
All my mom asked for for Mother's Day was for us to clean up the house. I don't know why my lazy ass brother refuses to help. He's 14 years old, he fucking knows better. Just pissing me off and stressing me out. I hate that he's like this.
I really hate advertising on Mother's Day. I'm glad it'll be over after today. It's tough being bombarded with everything about moms when yours isn't here anymore. I was driving to work yesterday and heard an ad on the radio saying something like "Gifts for your mom are great, but you know what she really wants? Time with -". I was worried it would say my mom wants time with me, so I turned it off. Well, no shit. I want time with my mom too. I'd give anything to spend more time with her. I'd cut off my own foot just to hug her again and hear her voice. Unless you can go back in time and save my mom's life, shut it. I wish there was a way to ignore all mother's day stuff while still going online and listening to the radio like normal.
I think the government is paying cellphone companies to make their phones as addictive as possible to keep the populace obedient and unquestioning.
My mom went to have surgery...This is definately messed up but i kind of hoped that she'd die.....